Hi Can't Believe I'm Doing This - Childhood Abuse Caused PTSD

[two_isles]

I watched my brother and sister get the crap beat out of them ( while I was the "golden child").
Since then, I had joined a cult, was raped in the cult, in March of this year LEFT the group, and have found out, my sister's parrallel journey of raising a son with Asberger's.
The outcome is the same for both of us.
After 18 years, we cannot cope well with others.
We do not work well with others ( even though our father
was gregarious beyond a doubt)
it has been difficult.
Just share your thoughts.
You are welcomed and loved.

 

[vera]

welcome! =)

(suck at this... but wanted to say hi!)

 

[hollyberry]

welcome to the forum

 

[mouse]

Just wanted to welcome you here

 

[dshanks]

Welcome. I also have PTSD due to childhood abuse. I can truly appreciate what you are going thru with all the intense emotions. For years I did not know what was wrong with me and thought I was flawed until I found someone who told me what it was. It is a long journey but having a forum I think will help a great deal. I have just joined as well and feel good about it already.

 

[secondchance]

Lots in common!

I am also new to the forum. I am 56 and have just been diagnosed with PTSD. The earliest memory I have as a child is of beatings. And from there it went downhill. I was relieved once I was diagnosed. On Valentines day I "watched" my mother die. My sister ( who was severly emotionally disabled) died this year also. My son was diagnosed with HIV. My daughters husband kicked the dog down the stairs and demanded she get an abortion or he would kill her. I held her hand....so I guess I just fianlly fell apart. I think the forum will help us if we let it. I am optimistic. I have a name to out on it now and a wonderful counselor. I welcome you and wish you good luck.:clap: God Bless!!

 

[secondchance]

One more thing

I have all of the usual symptom but all my life I have avoided small places (clostrophobia) sp? And I HATE it if someone holds me down or my hands or any such thing. Is that pretty normal also?

 

[just tina]

Hey tmb. It does seem odd that this stuff comes up in the middle of otherwise good times, doesn't it? But it makes sense---being strong enough to handle it.

Since you can't believe your here, you can surprise yourself. That's a good thing.

 

[sunnydaze]

tmb

You can get off your chest what has been inside without getting embarrased. No one can see you, you don't have to have eye contact with anyone. As long as you don't write out of line in this forum you can write everyday as my T recommended doing and nobody can find your diary in a drawer ect.
sunnydaze