desiderata310
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I took a hiatus from the site for a couple of weeks.
I'm not sure if I'm back but figured I would pop in and just give a status if anyone was interested.
The question of a service dog was completely cleared up. I do qualify, deserve and have the full unwavering support of my therapist. *sigh* I've moved forward and am waiting to be paired with an animal and have met someone who is going to really take the lead and assist me with the training who knows fully HOW to do the training and the WHY behind it. For the first time, I have something that almost resembles support.
I've had a couple of really bad days in the last couple of weeks but for the most part I seem to be moving into something that resembles ... calm? We discovered oddly enough, that I was picking up on my therapist's actual emotional state, instead of what he was trying to project and it seems that this was really having an impact on my ability to calm down in therapy. He's actually been more cautious to take better care of himself. That actually made a HUGE difference in how I do in sessions. I had no idea that it had such an impact on me. My therapist actually gave me permission from here on out to ask "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?" when I feel like something is wrong in session. So far, I've percieved a much calmer and more confident therapist than I have in the lat several months.
We are going to start doing Resource EMDR probably as early as this coming week. I have mixed feelings about it. ok... I'm actually terrified about it but I've done a bit of reading on the subject and I'm trying to not freak out. I get the WHY. It doesn't change the anxiety associated with it. I'm just trying to ride the wave...
I'm not sure if I'm back but figured I would pop in and just give a status if anyone was interested.
The question of a service dog was completely cleared up. I do qualify, deserve and have the full unwavering support of my therapist. *sigh* I've moved forward and am waiting to be paired with an animal and have met someone who is going to really take the lead and assist me with the training who knows fully HOW to do the training and the WHY behind it. For the first time, I have something that almost resembles support.
I've had a couple of really bad days in the last couple of weeks but for the most part I seem to be moving into something that resembles ... calm? We discovered oddly enough, that I was picking up on my therapist's actual emotional state, instead of what he was trying to project and it seems that this was really having an impact on my ability to calm down in therapy. He's actually been more cautious to take better care of himself. That actually made a HUGE difference in how I do in sessions. I had no idea that it had such an impact on me. My therapist actually gave me permission from here on out to ask "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?" when I feel like something is wrong in session. So far, I've percieved a much calmer and more confident therapist than I have in the lat several months.
We are going to start doing Resource EMDR probably as early as this coming week. I have mixed feelings about it. ok... I'm actually terrified about it but I've done a bit of reading on the subject and I'm trying to not freak out. I get the WHY. It doesn't change the anxiety associated with it. I'm just trying to ride the wave...
