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I have been married to him over 7 years now, we have an almost 2 year old boy, at the start of our relationship he was really sweet and funny guy, we hit it off and when time went on he started showing his not-so-good side. At first he would just scream and yell at me, then came the physical abuse, a couple of times he would come to me with a knife, try to choke me, slap me around. That was about 5 years ago, the physical abuse has stopped, but he still yells, screams when the kid is around, when my relatives are around. I don’t work, im a stay at home mom. It’s always about how i don’t do anything. How im so lazy, or that i should go to work and he would look after the kid (this is beacsue i told him to give the little guy a bath) Before i used to cry a lot, but now i can’t even do that. Im always walking on egg shells, im so afraid of him, afraid when his next outburst would be. He knows im vulnerable, that i don’t have money and i don’t have anybody, so he uses it to his advantage. Im so sick of this, sometimes i would imagine how i would just kill mysef or how i would threaten him with a knife, in my mind also i would never be able to actually physically harm him because im coward.
