How Do I Stop Caring?

[Deleted member 28403]

I am f*cking mad at myself... I can't do anything right, I can't say anything right and I'm constantly messing up with people I care about. I'm sick of it all

I don't know what to do, because telling them that I am a human, and that I simply cannot read their minds and cannot do exactly the right stuff all the time doesn't seem to work, and stuff that I do because I honestly care seems to enrage them... So what the f*ck do I do.

 

[LanaD]

I think I know what you're talking about. I used to expect others to care about me caring about them, then was disappointed when they didn't care. What I've been practicing is putting myself first and having no expectations - key word here is "practicing."

Care about you first and if others don't care/can't help themselves, there's only so much you can do.

 

[BlueDream]

Take a few deep breathes Seal.

My heartfelt advice is stop letting ppl have so much control over you.
You were not put here to live up to anyone else's set of expectations for you. If you keep trying to fix things and make them better you're doing yourself a disservice by taking the attention away from you and putting it on them.
Be concerned about Seal, and do what you need to do to be happy.

 

[LanaD]

And I'd like to add: ask yourself, "What will happen if I don't do X?"

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@LanaD
I don't know, people I care about will be angry at me, hate me or whatever, which is not something I want... :(

@BlueDream
I don't know anymore...
Till a few days ago anti-depressants were mainly working fine, and now they are not, I just feel awful, and it's getting worse and worse :( I feel like a huge chunk of chaos, and a bunch of other stuff seems to just make it worse... I'm barely coping with being alive, but at the same time feeling awful.

I just feel like dropping everything, everything I worked hard for, everything I care about and just ending it all :(

What the f*ck is the meaning of it all anyway

 

[BlueDream]

Honey you sound like me when I figure f*ck it I'm just gonna fail at everything so I might as well quit, you're beating yourself, quit doing that!! We, you and I are better than that!! Big hugs Seal!!
You keep fighting for yourself, you are worth all of it!!

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I talked to some people a bit and I feel a bit better, but still quite awful...

 

[Deleted member 28403]

It's really hard, because it seems like everything went to heck, and I can't rip myself off of it

 

[LanaD]

@LanaD
I don't know, people I care about will be angry at me, hate me or whatever, w...

Without more info, also without considering cultural differences, it's hard to tell, but a quote comes to mind, "Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." I've suffered a lot from trying to please others and the thing is people who expect you to please them can NEVER be pleased.

Also, I'll add something based on what I learned in therapy: so whatever you do YOU seem to be miserable because you're "always wrong" you say. So if you're always wrong anyway you might as well do what does NOT make you miserable.