Poll How Do You Cry?

[morgan]

I used to cry constantly. Everything made me cry. Then all of a sudden it stopped. First because of Methamphetamines then after I got off of those I shortly thereafter got medicated. Now it's mostly only silent tears. Sometimes my mom makes me cry a little harder than that though.

 

[shiraz]

When I was 4 years old, I was in hospital for an operation. I cried silently into my pillow so that I wouldn't draw attention and when the nurse came round for ward check, I'd turn my pillow over so she couldn't see it was wet with tears. I still cry silently if others are around, but can really bawl it out when alone.

Recently also able to cry aloud with my partner, when he is comforting me, I am comforting him, we are comforting each other :)

 

[Anonymoose]

I usually can't cry when I feel that I need to. I cry involuntarily when it's embarrassing to do so. I don't know why. I hate to cry in front of people, especially strangers. I fear that they'll think badly of me or make fun of me. It's embarrassing to lose face that way. I hate losing control, yielding to tears.

 

[cragger65]

That sounds pretty damn fine Shoshin, I am going to start my first garden ever next spring, am looking forward to it.

 

[midi]

I never ever used to cry - if we did, we got whipped harder. It wasn't until the accident that I started to - I wailed and my son heard. Then, about 7 months later, when I walked away from the Ex, I did it again. My son heard again. Then, after the attempted gang bang, I cried silently every bloody day, all morning, every morning. Now, I cry whenever, at the drop of a hat--I swallow it if I'm out in public, and at home, well, I just close my door and it rains non-stop--but it is nowhere near as bad as in the months after that attempted gang-bang.

Maybe the crying is just making up for all the lost time of denied emotions.

 

[midi]

...so then I remember my old gr 1 & 2 report cards, where it was written that I used to cry all the time in class and the teacher was concerned. I still have one of the report cards. By then, I'd been repeatedly raped by her boarder guy - and she covered up the crying in class by saying that I suffered from some disease that made me over emotional... From then until the accident, though, no crying... I wonder when I stopped.

 

[Lisa]

I never used to cry but am now a little better at it. Well I used to cry a lot as a young kid. But that only ever made things worse or no difference whatsoever. It definitely wasn't a good thing at home to cry, so I stopped. Had to relearn it a bit. It's commented that I don't "cry" though... I "drip"...LOL. As in, my face doesn't move, the tears just fall out. And I feel like I'm being strangled when I'm crying, quite literally, it gets too painful.

Anyone else like this?

 

[Robin]

I don't cry. Remember crying as a child, but since I went to boarding school at the age of 8, just don't cry anymore. I can count on my 1 hand the times I cried, since then.

 

[LoveWins]

When at home I usually cry loudly, even shrieks, I just get it all out. I was never told not to cry and trust my husband enough to let myself go, and often I can't really control it anyway. Otherwise I would try not to cry, or would try my best to keep it quieter

 

[lexie381]

I tend to bury myself under the duvet (almost like I don't even want God to see me crying) and I cry silently. I have to say one friend of mine Gareth, doesnt even knock when I am upset anymore, he opens the door, sits on the bed and tells me to get out of bed and open the curtains!!

 

[Gunchief]

I am learning to cry again. Before that I only cried at movies with dogs in it. Like old Yeller, Shiloh, etc.
Dave
My son going in the Army has made me cry more now than ever.

 

[cat]

Never. My ex-husband used to laugh at me when I cried over his having an affair & the effect it was having on me. I cried continuously when he assaulted me, but now 4yrs later I cannot cry over anything even the birth of my granddaughter or my sons graduations & weddings. I wish I could maybe it would release some of my anxiety.