How Far Gone Am I?

[It was only anxiety]

Had dissociation from childhood trauma,I think I'm a psychopath. But got ptsd in 2005 from a relationship break up, possibly a stroke along with drug use and rejection at the ER, nothing of note from my gp.
Then I had cancer in 2006, was lied to about surgery complications.

Saw a psychology professor in 2011 who just diagnosed me as somatic and avoidant.
I became worse because he never told me I had ptsd, never knew how bad i was. Hospital kept sending me away because my psychologist had ocpd and got the shits.

So untreated ptsd for 7 years, cptsd for 2 years now, been doing cbt and codeine but I keep getting more and more anxiety.

I am on sertraline and now my doctor wants to start me on epilim.

My question it's wether epilim can CURE my ptsd or is it just a bandage fix like working?

Because I'm thinking of just moving to Vietnam where I ironically feel comfortable being away from an egocentric society (ie haughty doctors).

Should I start epilim guys?
Can I take dostinex with it?

 

[StarChild]

My question it's wether epilim can CURE my ptsd or is it just a bandage fix like working?

PTSD is not curable with medication or even drugs. So, no medication can cure PTSD. But to treat PTSD, (if you really have it - Because according to your introduction mail, you're undiagnosed.) you need to work hard and long with a (trauma) therapist. And not just a few times... To work on (possible) trauma, you have to simply stay and face the music. But first of all, you need a diagnosis from a verified, experienced professional. And then work with their diagnosis, whether it is PTSD or not.

Should I start epilim guys?
Can I take dostinex with it?

Look, no one here can / should advise you to take medication. To prescribe you medication is a psychiatrists or physicians job to do.

Read what you wrote about yourself, it sounds like a lot of assumptions and self-diagnosis:

,I think I'm a psychopath

Why do you think that, and was it ever tested and diagnosed by a professional?

But got ptsd in 2005 from a relationship break up,

Sorry, but you don't get PTSD from a relationship break up.

possibly a stroke along with drug use and rejection at the ER

A possible stroke? How do you know it was a one? Are you still abusing drugs?

Saw a psychology professor in 2011 who just diagnosed me as somatic and avoidant.

Okay, but he didn't diagnose you with PTSD. As you write it, the diagnosis is: somatic and avoidant. NO PTSD here... Is there another diagnosis you don't want to mention here, because it doesn't fit your "belief" of what you mean to have?

My post isn't meant to attack you, but there are several things, of which I don't think they're a helpful or healthy way to approach the possibility of a mental or physical illnesses. We have a saying "Looks like you cooked an interesting mulligan. Lots of different ingredients but hard to digest."

But I must admit, this post of yours, is much more informative about you then your "introduction". In which you clearly labeled yourself as undiagnosed by the way.

Why do you think you have PTSD, although another diagnosis was already given?
Why do you self-diagnose (a lot)? Do you have difficulties to trust mental health professionals?
What exactly are you looking for here on the forum? Is it support or discussion or?... The clearer you state your needs or questions, the bigger the chance to get responses.
And can you explain, why your doctor wants to put you on epilim? What is it, he want to treat?

Welcome to the forum! I hope, members here can help you to sort through your issues.

 

[bell]

What @TreeHugger said. 100%.

And I'm not really sure what your message is getting at, as there's a lot going on there.

And Vietnam? Not sure where that fits in there, either. If you think all doctors are "haughty," they will be. As all doctors are not haughty, this is a belief, not a truth. They are different things.

Also, a psychology professor may not have the same credentials as a psychologist (it depends on where you are) and therefore may not give you a correct diagnosis, you need to see a psychiatrist to properly diagnose you.

Therefore, I'd suggest you check your beliefs in what you think is happening and going on and invest in seeking out the truth from professionals that can help you.

 

[It was only anxiety]

Well all I can say is I've been diagnosed with half the dsm, last month my shrink suggested i get a psych phd, and now I'm being put on a chemical lobotomy.
I was recommended dbt in the ER.
I was involuntarily committed to a psych ward for 2 months after being refused voluntary admission multiple times beforehand.

My doctors don't know what's wrong with me, I have seen about 10 psychiatrists while i was unwell not by choice.

I'm either completely psychopathic or I have ptsd, I honestly think a bit of both.

 

[bell]

The f*ck?! Chemical lobotomy has NOTHING to do with PTSD.

All of this together is making little sense. Please get professional help so you can be helped and diagnosed correctly.

 

[StarChild]

I'm either completely psychopathic or I have ptsd, I honestly think a bit of both.

And I think, with all due respect, you have no clue what you're talking about. And what you're saying is kind of a slap into everyone's face who has PTSD.. What exactly do you think is psychopathic? (And no wikipedia or other definitions, just what you personally think it is?) And what do you think is PTSD? And I ask you again; Are you still doing respectively abusing drugs?

I've been diagnosed with half the dsm

Well, then maybe you could enroll for the Guinness Book of World Records?... ;)

 

[It was only anxiety]

TreeHugger you can very well get ptsd from a relationship breakup when you have borderline personality disorder.

Anyway I'm crazy and I didn't sign up here to start arguing with people. Just to get help.

 

[bell]

No, from my understanding, you cannot get PTSD from a breakup. Period. Unless Criterion A was somehow involved.

People with PTSD aren't crazy. They are dealing with a disorder that can wreak havoc, which is different from crazy.

It sounds like you want to embrace the crazy label, complete with not trying to fully understand what you have, which leads to your own miseducation and that of others.

Again, I suggest you make an appointment with a psychiatrist (not a professor or a social worker) so you can get diagnosed properly and get on the path towards healing yourself.

Self-diagnosis only leads to complications and misunderstandings, neither of which will be conducive for you getting better.

 

[It was only anxiety]

Okay sorry this forum doesn't amend. I just read the whole thread.

I no longer abuse drugs except about 30mg codeine per day, prescribed by doctor shopping.

I get all different diagnosises, I've seen many psychiatrists. Hence why I looked up psychology myself.

I think I have ptsd because the book the psychologist gave me was to get out of my head. All the cbt was about was to stop thinking so much. I then got worse saw a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with ptsd.
I've had traumatic drug experiences, the more I looked in to it the more evidence pointed to it being ptsd. Even when I talk about symptoms they all line up with ptsd. Neck stiffness, everything seeming insignificant, being loopy etc

The only thing I don't have is nightmares instead i get somatic panic attacks.

When I talk about my experiences with doctors they tend to relate it to war, stuttering anxiety, feeling helpless, not trusting anyone.

One doctor tried to tell me you need to suffer violence to be dx with ptsd so I had to tell him I have had guns pointed to me when I was a child.

So to all the other loopy doctor here what's the diagnosis?

 

[It was only anxiety]

I have a current shrink, he doesn't wanna label just treat symptoms to make my life easier, I'm beyond labels now.

They want me distracted by working I want out of the symptoms.

 

[bell]

Since I'm getting the feeling that we're all being a bit punked here, I'm going to bow out of this thread.

(Neck stiffness being another thing that has sod all to do with PTSD.)

As you also seem to think that everyone else except a psychiatrist can diagnose you, and they are the only person who can, I think you may need more help than anyone here can provide.

 

[Lucycat]

The thread title - 'How far gone am I?' is strange. Here in the UK this term is used in relation to pregnancy. I am guessing you are not asking the forum members to determine how far along a pregnancy you are. So what are you asking?