Sufferer How The Eff Did I End Here?

[Just_Dan]

where do I begain?
I lost my firstborn 8 years ago. 5 January 2007. being the man and bread winner I returned to work two days after losing my baby. My work slowly went down hill as did my married life. 21 December I asked for help finding out was was wrong with me and in an answer hers was no. Being a newly diagnosed with PTSD and being an even newer single dad. I find it difficult at times with grounding with a 6yo running around.
Fining this site was the best thing that's happened to me it's answered so many questions I thought I was a lone in dealing with.. I just want things to be better for me and my buddy girl soon no matter how far momma rand off too..

 

[nic1633]

Welcome to the forum!

I think you exhibit a lot of courage and love to want to get better for your daughter. That's an admirable trait so many dads don't have. It's important to give yourself credit for your desire to raise her on your own, regardless of what her mother does. I have hope for you! Keep pressing on!!

 

[Just_Dan]

Nic1633... Thank you for your kind words. My daughter shows me everyday and in a million ways she's loves me and I know she no I will be doing all our silly things we enjoyed doing together again soon.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I think you are doing a lot of wonderful things for yourself. You are fighting to get better. You are reaching out for help. You joined this site. And most importantly, you want a better life for you AND your daughter.

I am so sorry that your ex didn't want to help you on this journey. I know it really does hurt to be abandoned when things are at their worst. (A little bit different, but I pretty much had all of my friends abandon me when I was first diagnosed, so I know it can be hard to lose the support of those around you.)

 

[shimmerz]

How the Eff did I end here????

That is exactly what I said when my whole life came crashing down around me. You may be surprised by the answers....

Welcome and happy journey.

 

[Nighthawk]

Welcome to the forum :)

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Welcome to the forum.

I have two small children under 4 so I know how difficult it is dealing with PTSD while raising a child. Hang in there.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hi @Newptsddad . I hope things become better than they even were in many ways & how you feel about yourself & view the world than it was before the traumas. That's the very weird paradox that's possible.

Welcome & peace & courage to you. :)

 

[Nam]

Welcome. It takes a little time to get a bearing of your surroundings and able to keep moving forward. I have 4 kids under 12, so I understand the PTSD parent thing. It's tough. I'm trying to repair the damage currently with my 12 year old. If, I may, advise you to keep your heart and mind open to your child even at the worst of times. Try to explain you don't feel well, but at the same time, be attentive enough that you can sense if your child is withdrawing or keeping information because of your illness. Parenting is hard. It's even harder doing it alone and with PTSD. You've got my support.

 

[joeylittle]

Welcome to the forum, @Newptsddad - you've got a lot you are working through, and this community is a great place to hang out while you are working through it. Glad you're here.

 

[intothelight]

@Newptsddad Welcome to the forum!

This is a really good place to find information and to seek support for your self as you work on recovering and also for help with dealing with PTSD and child rearing. Just keep in mind that PTSD is something you have and not who you are, and PTSD can make some things in life more challenging, but it doesn't mean that you can't be a great parent, person or whatever you want to be.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I admire your bravery and courage for sharing your painful experiences in the forum so kudos to you and welcome to the forum.

As a mother with PTSD and growing children I so wish I had access to this site when I was raising them.

Since joining I have learned and grown so much and have experienced real healing in my life as a result.

Please consider starting a Trauma Diary at some point if you want. You will get a lot of help, wisdom,, and support and the benefit of telling others your experiencing and it sure has helped me so much.

It is very hard to be a single parent with PTSD and I know that coming here will encourage you so very much and you are so blessed with your daughter. I wish you the very best.