siniang
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Since this is something quite a lot of us seem to be struggling with, I thought it might be worthwile to open a thread and collect tips how other's are dealing with or even have overcome this.
I'm having a really hard time being completely honest about my internal state with my therapist. It's not so much that I don't trust her (I have a rather naive/trusting personality that tends to overshare*). It's more about me minimizing. (and it's not about not sharing facts from the past/trauma, I have no problem talking about those with her and did so, there's nothing she doesn't know in that regard)
I could have had a week of meltdowns, depressive episodes, fights with people around me.... yet come into therapy and answering her question on how I've been and am doing with "I'm ok". Every single time.
I can recollect what's been happening, but those accounts don't at all match my internal state, both in past and present. At that very moment, when I talk about it, there's no emotions connected, eventhough there's been a hell lot emotions while experiencing them. When I talk about them, it's not <my> experiences, if that makes sense. It's almost like talking about the weather - stating facts, that bear little significance in retrospect. So yes, while those thing happened....they weren't really thaaaaaaaaat bad. It's passed, I'm here, and here in that moment, I'm fine. And that's the way I talk about those things with T - yeah, they happened, but they really weren't that big of a deal. Only...they were. And are.
I know she can't help me if I'm not honest. I haven't quite figured out yet why I can't be honest. Nor how to be it.
*I overshare factual information. I rarely ever share emotions. Not even with people really close, like my husband.
I'm having a really hard time being completely honest about my internal state with my therapist. It's not so much that I don't trust her (I have a rather naive/trusting personality that tends to overshare*). It's more about me minimizing. (and it's not about not sharing facts from the past/trauma, I have no problem talking about those with her and did so, there's nothing she doesn't know in that regard)
I could have had a week of meltdowns, depressive episodes, fights with people around me.... yet come into therapy and answering her question on how I've been and am doing with "I'm ok". Every single time.
I can recollect what's been happening, but those accounts don't at all match my internal state, both in past and present. At that very moment, when I talk about it, there's no emotions connected, eventhough there's been a hell lot emotions while experiencing them. When I talk about them, it's not <my> experiences, if that makes sense. It's almost like talking about the weather - stating facts, that bear little significance in retrospect. So yes, while those thing happened....they weren't really thaaaaaaaaat bad. It's passed, I'm here, and here in that moment, I'm fine. And that's the way I talk about those things with T - yeah, they happened, but they really weren't that big of a deal. Only...they were. And are.
I know she can't help me if I'm not honest. I haven't quite figured out yet why I can't be honest. Nor how to be it.
*I overshare factual information. I rarely ever share emotions. Not even with people really close, like my husband.