How to Feel Again? - Emotional Numbing

[Kunoichi]

Cindy,

Its not that I try to think i'm sub-human. And I don't think OTHERS are subhuman. Just me. I know selfish thinking, but it was what I was trained to think. What I still struggle with. My T said as I heal, I learn how much human I really am.

Beatle,

Thank you for your support hun. I hate feeling the way that I do about myself. But thank you.

Kunoichi

 

[beatle_bailey]

feelings got ya in there grip

Hello kunoichi

do you have a friend you can talk to ,, , I know you have a hubby , But do you have a friend .
Now we all get rapped in our onw shit ! real real deep some times , and there seems know way out . . .but it has been proven time and time again that talking to a friend or anyone some times helps {may just a little bit } but it helps .
I know only to well how deep we can fall in to self loathing ,self hate or just plain depression .
please call some one
lots of us care for you hear , , , and we worry about each other and try to help each other , , , But I have had to go to other sorces , like the phone or right over to some ones house when I was in real bad spsces

:Hug_emoticon::kiss::wink:
A Friend Beatle Bailey

 

[missys_girl]

Hi all, I'm a newbie.

I came across this forum today while I was at TAFE (Australian version of a college I guess), and wow, I can't believe how many others there are just like me! Don't get me wrong, I wasn't selfish enough to think I was the only one who was numb from PTSD but to ACTUALLY read other people are like it makes it so real!

I've had PTSD for about 3 years now, and I've been numb for about two years. Sure I can sometimes feel angers, I'll occasionally laugh and sometimes feel happy, but all in all I feel like a robot, like I'm on auto pilot. 90% of the time I laugh at people's jokes because I feel I HAVE to laugh, I feel obligated to or they will feel like an idiot, and I have to make comments and act a certin way or I get asked 'what's wrong' all the time, when, nothing is wrong, I'm just not feeling anything. My therapist doesn't really seem to want to tackle it, maybe she doesn't know how. My last one left for another job before really working on it as well, I don't have a choice of going to another therapist but I suppose, I've only seen this one like, 3-4 times so I have to give her a chance.

But I just want to say thank you so much for starting this post, I no longer feel so alone, or like such a freak.

 

[sky dancer]

I used to think I was in touch with my feelings, because I can be quite dramatically expressive of my feelings--but mostly the angry ones. It's much harder for me to get to the more tender feelings--the actual hurt of the betrayal.

Through my PTSD, dx, and discovery, I see I have great difficulty differentiating what is going on with me--especially when I'm triggered.

I can't really talk about it, since I don't even know what it is, sometimes.