Christmas Eve we had party and husb.'s family came over. All went fairly well. A good time and glad I was up for it, as just the day prior my husb. and I had an arguement and initially I was fed up and felt tempted to walk out for good. I made some right chooses and our day improved greatly. My daughter said to me that day, "Why Mommy, if you leave you won't have any home to live in." I was thinking how cute and brilliant, but don't worry darling I'll never leave you and your brother.
I'll be damned though if I'm going to tolerate cont. unneccessary stress, negativity or destructive criticism. Anyhow I made good chooses, resulting in surprisingly good result. X'mas day went fairly well. Today very busy. And tommorrow hope to go out with husb. and kids on bikes.
Besides this...still having the most difficulty concentrating, focusing and slowing down. What with this concentration problem I've barely been able to read...partly concentration...partly vision. Reading and focusing takes 5x longer than what it should...and I don't have that kind of available time. bummer....My memory problems are annoying as heck too. Hoping all this will pass to a functioning level again. Will be having major surgery in 14 days on left eye. If all goes well I hope again to be fit to be more involved in the forum. If something goes wrong, well then it oughta take 10x longer, with one less eye.
Nervous and frightened and hoping I'm just taking an X'mas break and not slowly getting away from the forum, or that I will be needing to let go bc of perm. loss.