How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[Deleted member 93]

Ugh... today carried over. Well, my bitch I had earlier still stands. The baby damn near broke my neck and I have to repair my ceiling now. Trying to install a "cat tree" in the living room. Spring loaded pressure point at the top to attach. Short ass me in a chair and a toddler thinking it would be fun to tackle my knees as I was getting it aligned and it snapped in place as I used it to catch myself... She has been a terror today.

My mom sent a short brief email. I sent a short not so nice one back. Deleting my account.

My younger son is going in counseling to help him get his feelings straight I find out today. He is not handling my move well at all. I feel like shit.

My SIL is pregnant and there are markers showing that this baby may have serious problems, they think heart problems are certain as they are in the last baby (those surgeries had us all on pins and needles). The last one is the light and wonderful. She has downs and is still younger than my toddler. This next one now is a girl too but may be worse off and may have a condition that will make the baby pass in the first year. News tonight. Waiting on more tests to confirm in 9 days. Talking about quality of life without saying the A word... Hubs is very upset and Mr. Cast iron stomach says he think he may get sick. I know what he means, it is so sad. They have had tests put to them. Going to be a long 9 days.

My son downloaded shit and did illegal BS teen boy crap on line. He is missing a computer now. I am hoping I am not missing account numbers... Again. We lost 8 grand already due to identy theft and an account we did not use got cleaned out. Well, we are too broke for that now! Plus he downloaded a worm. Ugh.

This was all today, I am done with this fking day.

 

[becvan]

that is a lot to handle in one day.. don't forget your self-care!

*hugs*

bec

 

[Deleted member 93]

Does beer count as self care, because that is what I am in now... Hubs got a 12 pack and then said sorry???? I looked at him like he was nuts. I said I wanted a couple beers I was not doing a 12 pack! He said he figured I would be tonight and he did not blame me. Uh no. Even with PMS kicking me on top which always makes this more fun I have still been well and on my scheduled tiny doses of meds to maintain the addiction, shit because that is all it does.

No attacks just high stress. The attacks always seem to come a day or so later after ongoing stress. I am not looking forward to tomorrow. But at least the MIL is looking for an excuse to get out of work (almost retired in a few months) and all I have to do is call if I go down. She works by my house. But being her daughter and her future grand daughter I don't want to burden her... God this hurts. Oh damn it is ripping me up. Why babies? **** an adult up, not babies. Let them have a start. Even hubs had the tears tonight and that almost never happens as he is all man...

 

[lumberjack]

Today im wound up like a spring,,,my skin has been crawling all day. Ive been a big ugly bear. I hate mankind...........If people could solve their own problems like adults and not act like children..mj ( i hate the world )

 

[cookie]

sorry you had such a rough day veiled, praying for a better one tomorrow.
cathy

 

[jade]

kids are finally starting to feel better. Ethan went back to school today. Told them to call me if he starts getting too wiped out. Now it's my turn. Went to the doctors yesterday and found out that I have bronchitis and the flu. I hurt everywhere and everytime I cough I swear that I'm going to cough up my lungs. Also keeping a close eye on what I'm coughing up as there is blood in it. Don't completely understand but my doctor questioned Congestive Heart Failure? He sent my X-rays to the hospital for the radiologists to read. Was supposed to have my second with the therapist today but doc said no I am supposed to be on bed rest. It bugs me but I know he's right. The more I move around the more pain I have in my back and chest. Also woke up this morning feeling like someone beat the crap out of my kidneys last night. Going to call him when the office opens to find out if this is common or if its something entirely different.Thank God my mom is here to help with the kids.

 

[becvan]

Thinking of you V, hoping something improves there...

Well, between the kids, I'm already pulling out my hair. Poor Matt, he asked me first thing this morning if I would sleep on the couch for him again. He's completely freaked out about his brother now. Of course I will sleep on the couch so he feels safe. Then I had to call my ex-boss and find out where my check is (it's two weeks late). She is making me go down there to get it. Fine. I'm shaking like a leaf, but I will go and get it. Then that will be it for that bloody place. I have to drop off another thing (errand) and I think that is about all I can handle. At least this will force me into the shower and some clothes. That's my bright side.

Ugh, this day is not starting out great.

bec

 

[Deleted member 93]

I need a shower too... Just why can't I tak one from the sofa? Sorry don't expect much sense from me today. Thanks for the prayers and thoughts guys. I find myself praying the baby is "just downs" like the last one. Not something worse. That is the hard one for me. And I can only imagine what she is going through.

 

[Nam]

Praying veiled, praying.

 

[jade]

Well, called the doctors office when it opened and he wanted to see me again. Had me pee in a cup and found blood in my urine also. I'm just falling apart. Not sure if its urinary or kidney infection. All I know at this point is that I'm exhausted.

V, you are in my thoughts. My prayers go out to you and brother and SIL.Hope for everyone all goes well. Big hugs for everyone.

 

[cookie]

today

:loopy: :crybaby: :wall: :hit-boss: :dont-know : too crazy for words.

 

[goingonhope]

fair day...exhausting evening...progress despite myself