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[GR-ass]

My back hurts, my head hurts, I'm not sleeping, am out of sleepers I ache all over and it's raining and I'm out of clean clothes i feel like crying or cutting or throwing shit. Ranting isn't helping. Woke up to screaming this morning realised it was me could have sworn my brother was in my room he wasn't bt that doesn't stop the fact that I thought he was and my mind convinced me he was. Can't sleep don't want to actually scared to so tired but won't sleep. can't let him get to mee slightly manic ignore the lack of punctuation I don't mean it Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrah today so sucks. Two more days to Luke time though can't wait.

Well, point out the good part.

Oh if it keeps raining like this there is no way I'll get out of here this weekend.

Feels like running but naked through the rain. Refuses to Gacks. I hate my head today. Feels like my mind can't stop.

 

[jade]

Toady so far I'm feeling a little better. Still waiting for the Dr. to call with the test results. Broke off a tooth last night so I won't ask myself again "what else can go wrong". At least I'm getting back to the point where I can think and process stuff again. Still very tired and sore.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Just struggling with the thought that this pain is never going to go away.
Physically my body cannot take much more.
Mentally... my mind just wants to run.

 

[vcc123]

frustrated & hopeless

me too.. I'm sorry.. I wish I could make you feel better.. I wish I could make me feel better. I'm so close to the 'bottom' I cant see the top.. I know its there somewhere.. just keep hanging on.. and know that you're not by yourself.:frown:

 

[Deleted member 93]

I broke, hallucinating and fked up emotions I do not know why. Kids gone tonight at the grandparents as I am slipping. I can type somehow, not sure how much sense I make. But my mind took a... is taking a damn vacation and a half.

 

[becvan]

finally slept some, not much, riddles with nightmares and I soaked the bed with sweat. Feel like someone clobbered me. Went and got some over the counter sleep pills, sleepy time tea and Immoduim. Enough of this.. I'm knocking myself out tonight no matter what it takes. I an't see straight thinking straight.. nothing.. i'm desperate

bec

had a very screwed up dream about flying to aussie land and figi and Kiwi (yes it was kiwi in my dream) which werea all small islands and nasty chppy waters and a bunny was flying in the open cargo door? hanging on with it's claws and I was drinking red wine with these wierd gusy that were laughing and cheerful but crept me out.. and I was lost

bec

 

[mouse]

I am having the worst Ok maybe not the worst but a really bad day and I dont see it getting better any time soon not this time its going to take a while

 

[Deleted member 93]

bec, what ever you ate today before sleep, don't again. I thought I had weird dreams.

 

[GR-ass]

Gacks. . . Dreams?

That would imply I slept more the a half hour at a time. Usually when it rains I sleep fine. Unfortunately all I can think is that if it keeps raining I won't get to Lukes on friday.


Oh, my rat girls made me smile last night. I went to bed (didn't sleep but bleh) when I turned the light off without saying goodnight to them I heard this godalmighty shriek.

On goes the light and here is Whisper, pressed tight against the cage door meeping at me.

Pulled the girls out and had snuggles on my bed. Till 3am. I love my girls, they give me something to look after that needs me to get my ass out of bed.

Always work better with animals then people

 

[becvan]

Hehe, V: those are my normal dreams! Didn't eat anything...lol

I slept for around 10? hours. Tried those over the counter sleeping pills.. that was a weird experience. I could feel the drugs hit my body, piece by piece, and it was painful. I was so tensed up, that it actually hurt. I felt each muscle tighten and then it would relax and it did that from my feet all the way to my eyeballs. My eyeballs hurt! That was the last thing I remembered from last night. I'm sore today, but I've slept! Thank god. I felt like I was going off my rocker last night. I know I was dreaming again, don't remember what though, and I have to wash everything, again. What is with soaking everything with sweat just from dreaming? I've done it for years and I know they are stressful dreams but sheesh, that annoys me. Anyways, I can think, somewhat, today. That is good.

bec

 

[becvan]

Y&A:

How ya doing today? What is going on? (your post didn't say much for me to get an idea of what is up)

bec

 

[jade]

Bec, so glad that you finally were able to get some sleep. Starting to feel a little better with the illnesses. Mentaly feel as if fading to black. Over did the xanax last night as I wanted to sleep without the strange dreams the antibiotics give me. So at this point I'm half grounded and half still in space. Now I have one hell of a headache. we'll see how the rest of the day goes.