How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[zoe]

A lifetime in a day

I think I just went through my entire life today! My husband tripped over crutches that I will be using after Thursday's surgery. (The third surgery this year) It's scary anytime he trips because he has a muscle disease, has numbness from transverse myelitis, and possibly ms? He had just come back from caring for his parents which I do during the week between work hours. I wrote 4 emails to my therapist( I hope he reads fast) I've been spacing out most of the day remembering the past. Haven't done anything I've needed to do. I even feel wierd writing this because I can't feel it, but I did earlier. I've sat here questioning memories, feeling like hurting myself, and wanting to just die, and then it is all gone. I guess the anger is still there. I just want the past to go away so I can just be here and with my husband like he has been here for me all these years. Am I incredibly strange or do a lot of people do this trying to figure out everything in a day thing? Sorry if this doesn't make sense it's probably anxiety over the surgery.

Hope you all had better days!

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[GR-ass]

I got EMPLOYED

And my week has been good :D

 

[anthony]

Congrats cass... well done.

 

[batgirl]

Oh wow cass that's great. Good luck, I hope it means you can move soon.

 

[mouse]

congrats cass, I thinkthey have found the biggest reason of my headaches, dont undersertand it but as long as it stops doesnt matter

 

[GR-ass]

*hugs* mouse

Yup BG, it means i can move, and finally *finally* start looking at healing.

 

[jods]

Congrats Cass, great news!

happy dance!

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Starting to crawl out of my hole.
My mom is in town so I can't hide in my basement.
Went 3 places, and I made it through each one without panicking.

 

[wildfirewildone]

:loopy: My life here has been rather horrible of late....For several days I haven't been able to access this site or any other for days....Don't know if it's my modem that's a problem or if it's my ISP...I've called my ISP and they said that they had no problems on their computers over the weekend....I called Apple as I have a mac but my son has to call them because he's the one who bought the thing in the first place....I am amazed at the moment to have actually gotton on this site!!!! I have been battling bouts of horrible stomach queasiness and nausea for 2 weeks stemming from my food poisoning incident....My med doc has called in 3 different meds for me to try.....the first 2 did little....but this third one seems to be helping....Today was the first day that I've woken up without the nausea whatsoever!!!!:clap: I will write more later if I can access this site.....KEEPING THE PEACE

 

[goingonhope]

Struggling some with motivation and feelings of impending doom. Was painfully awake all last night without any sleep and my mind focused on past subjects I'd rather just leave alone. Still always frightening to feel at a lack of control of what plays over and over in my mind. Unhappy with myself as I experience PTSD symptoms that I thought were gone, dead and buried. Seriously contemplating given up the cigg's that I've been using to help medicate and immediately replacing them with daily evening and/or daily doses of librium. If I'm going to be addicted to something, may as well make it the lesser of the two evils. Where has all my strength gone. I need God! I miss God!

 

[Deleted member 93]

Dealing with nursing my "mean" out door cat. He is on life 3 or 4 of 9. People described a mean cat on here before but he sounded like child's play compared to my 6 yo one, why I am not fast to past judgment on critters. But he was severely abused when I got him at 1 and had major surgery, a couple actually as his side exploded from infection when I saw it I "stole" him as my heart broke so just took him and the owners cared less. I think he has chronic pain as he was not mean before and after a couple years of getting to know someone he will rub on you, just cannot pick him up. He takes time.

But he was bitten by a dog the other day as the hole is huge (and he refuses to stay inside, you can lose an arm forcing him to). But we are clawed up doing so as he has a huge puncture right net to his errr exit.

Downside he pulled a screen off tonight while I was in therapy. I had my cat who is not fixed yet and a very girl go out. I am nuts tonight about it. No damn kittens!!!

I was also led to believe I hit a wall in therapy. Basically I know all I should. I know how to implement it. Issues... Being a SAHM and no break except to vent here and pushing myself to do that. Well, I just do not have the time for self care to further myself.

My MIL spoke with me tonight and she is going to set up when her retirement kicks in in a couple weeks to take over kids during the day at times so I can work on me. I will be doing yoga, acupuncture, and time to meditate again. I am also being set up with a TCM graduate to set me up on herbs to finish getting off xanax. It will still be hard but we hope we can take he edge off and the MIL may be there to help nurse me. She has been great so may be able to cope seeing it. After two years of this to actually get off seems unreal.

It is so weird my MIL. She hugs, she cares but she really makes me feel like she does. I want so much to get close to her as she feels like a fantasy mom but it scares me so much. Why was mine not half what she is?

 

[wildfirewildone]

:loopy: I am doing well today!!!! I had tried earlier to dye my hair but I mixed the wrong 2 solutions together and so I had to throw it out....so I went and bought another box kit and will try again later....My son and his fiance will arrive here at 11 am tomorrow!!!:crazy-eye I can hardly wait!!!!.....This will be the first time to see "THE" ring!!! Iv'e seen a picture of it on her blog but seeing it in person will be neat!!!! Also tomorrow my son will be here to fix my computer and hopefully it can be done without sending it back into the company...everyone say your prayers....It has really been acting up the past few weeks and sometimes it takes me a half hour or more to be able to get and online connection...:naughty: I am most likely going to be getting a new printer and hopefully it is a three in one....This printer is driving me nuts too!!!!!:wall: Often it seems to only want to do things its own way and not the way I tell it too.....must be in its adolescence!!!:frown: We will all be going to see the Claude Monet exhibit in Cleveland and I've been looking forward to seeing it ever since I found out that it was there.....That will be sooooooo cool!!!!! me Happy Happy HAPPY!!!!!...... LOVE WILL KEEP US TOGETHER