How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[wildfirewildone]

:wink: Wednesday evening I went to my writers group and read the second section of my book [which is about my life with PTSD] I had a few suggestions on wordage changes but everyone liked it!!! I really like being thought of and accepted as a writer!!!!! And I do plan on trying to find a publisher when I'm done so start saving you pennies now!!!!........
GIVE PEACE A CHANCE

 

[GR-ass]

*sighs*

Have had a migraine continually since last weekend. Really shitting me off.

Was stuck at mums place with bro dearest *grrumbles*

Heres cut and paste from another forum.

this from the yesterday
migrain since friday, out of meds and has realised centerlink screwed up and yet again I didn't get another Health care card (so I can get cheaper meds)

Would be sooo much easier to drag myself in if 1) wasn't feeling the affects of going without meds a week (my own fault, should have gotten script filled a while ago)
2) didn't have a head that feels like its going to explode should I take three steps


oh, to top this week off, I put in a major complaint at one of the RPG's I play at cos I was being what I felt emotionally bullied. Had to find every bit of correspondence with said writer, has realised that some have been deleted and now, don't know if I was just being oversensative/ paranoid

To top it all off, 'rents took off for a week (they needed it) leaving me at home with bro dearest.

Not a good week.
I needs a or some choc or both
All in all sums it up

and todays effort
Well rents are home again, managed to get me crying by bitching about the house not being spotless.

Yeah mum, for the last week I've been flat out staggering out of bed to pee but sure, I can vacuum/ scrub and shite.

Ri-ight.

So yeah. Head isn't as sore, but body feels like i've been run over by a truck.

Top off a great week I had a flashback, ended up sitting on the floor of my room repeating my childhood mantra. I'm not here I'm invisable. You cant see me can't hear me can't touch me. I'm not here Im invisable. You cant hurt me cant scare me just leave me be.

Never ever wanted to feel like I had to lock myself in my room and repeat that again

Oh joyu oh fun Oh yeah.

I love my life.

Although on the good side, my sweety has been such a sweetheart, taking my moodswings, my angry outbursts and my general crazies in swing. He makes me feel loved and isn't afraid to tell me that he Loves me. Me, screwed up, foot in mouth little bitch called me.

Gods he makes me feel good about myself.

 

[goingonhope]

Today was a great day. We all went to the zoo. Had a really great time. We laughed a lot. Our children had each come into our room to wake me with hugs, Happy Mother's Day wishes, song, kisses and all sorts of wonderful things were said. Then from behind me a tape recorder was pressed on. Apparently my husb. had snuck into the room and turned it on. It was my son saying I Love You Mommy, I love you Mommy and lots more.

Later I was served waffles, homemade and school made beautiful Mother's Day cards were given me along with art with painted handprints and poetry, and then each one made me a piece of jewelry from beads. Daughter invented the hand bracelet which fit perfectly, read MOMMY w/ hearts on either side and I wore it all day. Our son made me a wonderful bracelet.

My husb. and I really had a good time together at the zoo, and our kids laughed and had fun all day.

Wow! This most definately was one of my best Mother's Day's ever. After supper I read bedtime stories and my husb. planted a rose bush. Our Aunt had come over and enjoyed ravioli with us too.

I called my mother shortly after supper to wish her a Happy Mother's Day and spoke with her for 20 min. Then our phone went haywire and I told her I'd call her back late this evening. Instead she called me sooner just at bedtime and when I told her I couldn't speak now she appeared to get upset and hung up on me without even a goodbye. Confusion immediately was settin in and I just knew sudden irritability would soon follow. Instead of the other possibilities of feeling like a victim of her manipulations I called her back and very assertively said, "Mom, I know I said I'd call you later, but we just spoke and you abruptly hung up without even a goodbye. I had a very nice Mother's day today and if you did in fact knowingly hang up on me without saying goodbye then that was rude." I heard what she said afterwards, some nonsense that I didn't do that did I? I didn't think I did that. If I did I'm sorry. Well, whatever Mom.........all I know is that confusion mostly left and I've since mostly enjoyed the evening. I chose wisely not to call her this morning, as in no way did I want her having any influence whatsoever on my mind or my day today.

Well hope a good nights sleep is in store tonight, as most lately I've been feeling alot better and doing good.

Hope

 

[wildfirewildone]

Mothers' Day weekend was fine:crazy-eye Saturday my son and his fiance and myself went to the Cleveland Art Museum and viewed the Claude Monet exhibit!!!!! Of course it was my son's treat....Monet is my favorite painter of all time and it was sooooooo exciting to see his paintings personally...Previously I had seen prints and pictures in art books of his work but this time was the first time that I got to see them up close and personal... I can't put into words the ecstasy that I felt as I set my eyes on picture after picture!!!!! There would be about 4 to 6 paintings per room and there were quite a few rooms after I got close to see the brushwork and color layering I would view them from a distance like the other side of the room...Quite neat really!!!!:thumbs-up I haven't been to the museum for 35 years when I went on a SR. High field trip....I am going to view stuff in the local art museum sometime this week....I am proud of myself for not freaking out from being around so many people!! And when I got back into my son's car I didn't let out any screams though I did give my rabbit a good squeeze....Sunday I went out to eat with 3 of my siblings and parents....I got there a bit late as I had slept through my alarm beeping for 2 hours and them some.... I wonder if that occured because I subconsciously didn't care to spend a lot of time with them:dontknow: My MD gift was a new printer...It's a 3-in-one....Printer, scanner, and copier....I no longer have to runout when I need to copy something.....GREAT!!!! It so far is properly taking my commands and obeying them completely!!!! What a relief!!!! I hope you all have a pleasant day!!!!!BREATHING IN THE PEACE

 

[kers]

Wildfire, I loved reading your excitement about seeing the Monet works! It's so cool to see your favorite artist's works, isn't it?

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Still reading some posts,
but I'm exhausted and overwhelmed at the moment
So that's why I've been quiet

Going for breakfast with my parents in 3 hours
they don't live in my city, but they travel here often
Even though they live about 5 hours away (by driving)

 

[GR-ass]

still around kinda. Just been struggling, not been able to cope with the foruming atm.

Kinda gettig back on my feet (having meds helps a lot).

Heres hoping this week goes good.

 

[wildfirewildone]

:crazy-eye I am about to collapse....I only had 4 hours of sleep last night as I woke up way early due to the nausea that I've been feeling....I wish it would go away and stay away....I am bound and determined to start doing my exercises later this morning...My right knee is getting rather stiff and is very sore....for the arthritis I need to get it moving....:crazy-eye I am enjoying my new 3-in-1 printer...It has a really cool program with it so I can manipulate pictures and add text also....I've already used up the color ink cartridge...I can use photo paper in it so I can print some of my photos so I don't have to run to the store to get copies...One good thing with this printer also is that the ink cartridges are only $21 not $32!!!! If you are sick and tired at the ghastly prices that we are being charged for gasoline.....write or e-mail your Senator and Congressman!!!!...and keep at it!!!!....buy the time I pay my rent and put gas in my van....I've got less than half of my income left!!!! Then our housing authority is surcharging us $5 for using our air conditioner....Most of my stress seems to be financial and there's no relief in sight!!!:eek: I better go get in bed now and catch some:sleeping: ........PEACE ABOVE ALL

 

[GR-ass]

Well *snuggles* everyone.

Had a b'day last thursday *ooh yays*

Nah wasn't so bad I suppose. Went out to dinner with my sweety Friday. We were talking and he said to me that after having me in his life for five months, he can't even consider a life without me in it *awws*

It has made my night and my week. Just thinking of him saying it, and the look on his face makes my heart melt and makes me think hey, I can do this. I can get through this fine.

*snuggles* and hugs to all
cass

 

[Portabella]

Been a bad week that is turning out better. My old poodle Barkley took ill with his back. He slipped a disk about 10 years ago and since we have had a battle with it. He was in agony for days and I had to lay in bed and pet him, rub his spine, put hot packs on him. Feed and water him by hand. And hope while feeling sick from stress that he would come back to me one more time, I love him so much. Well, I called the vet and he gave me some generic medicine that he swore would help. It did. Barkley can walk again. I was having to carry him out and let him do his business and carry him back to bed. He had a couple of mistakes on the bed, which was a mess but he could not help it. Well, looks like I have been given one more reprieve from losing my little hairy brown baby. I dread putting him to sleep. So, I shall cherish what ever time we have left before the final paralysis and pain overcomes him.

 

[wildfirewildone]

:hello: I am sad to hear that your dog has been ailing...It's good that the meds are working :thumbs-up !!!! My cat Hayley has wheezing spells from time to time and so I had to do what you do with Barkley...Just enjoy her everyday as each day goes by...It got too painful when I kept thinking that she wasn't likely to live into her twenties as I was expecting her to...She stills stays pretty active and keeps me laughing....she was just jumping at the bumps of the blanket on my bed!!! Sooooooo hilarious:rofl: !!!!! ....... LIVING THE PEACE

 

[wildfirewildone]

:think: This afternoon I put my last $21 in my gas tank....I got 6.178 gallons of gas......tsk..tsk!! :finger: to the pres and the oil companies!!!! It would really help me if I could drive to the stables a half hour from here!!! But can't risk not being able to see my therapist this coming Thursday....At least after this month I won't be paying med copays or car insurance....I have been fortunate to find help these other months to pay the copays....I have been wanting to save up for a couch....but any extra goes into my gas tank :mad: In order to keep myself out of the hospital...I need to be seeing my psychodoc every 2 weeks and my therapist every week...I had to delay my psychodoc appointment this week as I don't have the $$s for gas as I drive an hour and a half to see him....:wall: It would be cheaper for the government to pay for my gas so I can make my appointments and stay out of the hospital...Those costs are more astronomical!!!! :dont-know how to keep going with all this added stress...this constant gnawing that goes on inside of me...wondering when I'll break....I am at my wit's end!!!! SEEKING THE PEACE