How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[Ronin]

Hilarious - more absolutely neeeded bureau nonsense combined with bad drivers, but at least I had fun patrolling & people I didn't want in that area moving it

 

[Britt.f7]

Have to take husband in for a colonoscopy. I will be staying while he has the procedure. He said I could just drop him off and pick him up but that is ludicrous. He always stays with me through my appointments. I will be there.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

So far so good.

 

[Lionheart]

Physically I am still weak from being ill, but I slept late and it has been a good day so far.

 

[Britt.f7]

We put up our tree today. I bought a really small one for us. It is so cute. lol Maybe not so small next year.

 

[Britt.f7]

Well, my nurse practitioner can not come up with an alternate drug to abilify as a replacement. Abilify is too expensive. She recommended acupuncture. I have body issues so I am not sure how I feel about this. But I am getting frustrated, so I am looking into it. So far my insurance doesn't cover it, but I can appeal this. I just want to feel better.

 

[jaccat]

Was a productive day up until tea time, when a family crisis hit. End result was me calling the police on my own brother for fear of his wellbeing. Had an unsatisfying ending so I don't know what happens next. Several of us worried about him but unless he chooses to help himself-

So yeah. Not a good end to my day. And now I'm supposed to just go to sleep, right?

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

Haven't left the house since Saturday. Went to a local flea market on Saturday and could barely take ten steps without having to stop for the pain on my back and hips. Now getting panic attacks because I've had so little sleep.

Not eating properly, I just have so little energy to do anything.

I desperately hate the flat I'm living in and sick of hearing the drunken arguments from the neighbours.

Feel like I'm moving backwards not forwards.

 

[Anrish]

My day began with last night. My shoulder and neck had been tense for about ten days - very tense. The pain recached a point during the night that I couldn't sleep, I couldn't lay down, I couldn't sit or stand...I've got a high pain tolerenace but I was crying because of the pain. It hurt so much! Cleo had already slept in my room to be there if anything happened. She called a hospital (no emergency case), the duty call doctor (who said: take some Ibu and get checked next day...). Just what I expected...so I took a 1 1/2 dose of Ibu and could at least sleep a bit. Called in sick again, didn't have enough sleep. Got a doctor's appointment at 09:30. Never been to the doctor here before so it's kind of weird. She raised wheals with anaesthatics under my skin on my neck and my shoulder...it's still a bit numb - but the pain got less during the day. I feel so stupid only lying around, watching TV and not being able to do much work in the household....stupid day, stupid neck, stupid shoulder.

Stop stupid!

Self-care! Did some yoga and used my head pad a lot today. I think I will take some pain killers so I will be able to rest during the night...

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

@Anrish I feel for you. Insomnia is bad enough without physical pain keeping you awake.

I'm trying to avoid Christmas. I hate this time of year and its not a festival I celebrate, but everyone seems to think that Christmas is compulsory. Its not.

Tomorrow I have to shop to get me through the weekend where everything is closed. From tomorrow the radio will be silent, I don't have a television.

My back is in agony, but I have so much I have to do. And I think my depression is getting the better of me and I feel like I want to disappear - for the record I am not suicidal.

So today, I have overfed the cat - again! Placed some treats in the degus cage - adding to the ones they already have and ignored everything I need.

I'll think about tomorrow in the morning, its the best I can do right now.

 

[Britt.f7]

I went to my first physical therapy appointment to help alleviate the dizziness. She assessed me. Said my neck is really, really tight. I was glad I could handle her massaging my neck. Not big on someone touching me. She listened, which was a relief after dealing with the neurologist who didn't. She has another patient with dysautonomia so she is going to ask him for his doctor's name for me. I thought that was great.
Did a lot of running around after that and Christmas grocery shopping. Exhausted but staying up because my hubby is. :)

 

[ms spock]

My day has been tough so I did a Self Compassion Break

Exercise 2: Self-Compassion Break

Think of a situation in your life that is difficult, that is causing you stress. Call the situation to mind, and see if you can actually feel the stress and emotional discomfort in your body.

Now, say to yourself:
1. This is a moment of suffering

That’s mindfulness. Other options include:

• This hurts.
• Ouch.
• This is stress

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This is a moment of suffering. I am terribly dissociated and unable to feel my feelings. I feel numb. I feel overwhelmed. I feel frozen. I feel a little wistful about having to abort my medication withdrawal. I feel like I will never be able to stop eating to emotionally regulate.


2. Suffering is a part of life
That’s common humanity. Other options include:

• Other people feel this way.
• I’m not alone.
• We all struggle in our lives.

Now, put your hands over your heart, feel the warmth of your hands and the gentle touch of your hands on your chest. Or adopt the soothing touch you discovered felt right for you.
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Lots of other trauma survivors suffer from severe dissociative episodes like I do. Lots of trauma survivors have missed out on not having a life. Lots of other trauma survivors struggle with their Complex PTSD, lots of other trauma struggle with their severe attachment disorder, lots of other PTSD members struggle with their own self Absorption, lots of other PTSD People struggle with their reactivity that makes it hard to be present, lots of other people get frozen and find it hard to get unstuck.

Many severe child abuse sufferers find it hard to stop immediately fawning and caring for others.

In all this pain I am so not alone. I belong to this forum. I belong in life, no matter how much it doesn't feel like it. I am not alone, there is common struggles here that I am engaged within.
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Say to yourself:

3. May I be kind to myself

You can also ask yourself, “What do I need to hear right now to express kindness to myself?” Is there a phrase that speaks to you in your particular situation, such as:

• May I give myself the compassion that I need
• May I learn to accept myself as I am
• May I forgive myself
• May I be strong.
• May I be patient

This practice can be used any time of day or night, and will help you remember to evoke the three aspects of self-compassion when you need it most.
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May I be kind and gentle with myself. May I give myself comfort and start to develop an ability to take love and care into my heart rather than deflecting it all the time. May I give myself even a few seconds of reassure and care now. Learning to care for myself with eventually help me not to be so self absorbed and crawling out of my skin with anxiety. So may I be kind to myself as I missed out on love and care, attunement and presence as a child and teenager so I can now give it to myself which will help me to be less dependent, lost, desparate and needy. May I be kind to all of this within myself.