Hello.I used to be a pretty active member here at myptsd,as a sufferer,but I finally got to the point where I was doing well and just kind of stopped coming here except occassionally to take a look around mostly.
But I am back because my husband was diagnosed earlier this year.And tbh,it is very draining.It was,and is,hard enough taking care of myself and managing my own PTSD,now I feel like I am pulling double duty or something.
I was diagnosed due to childhood abuse and he was diagnosed due to a death at his workplace,so it is very different than mine.When he is triggered,not only does it take him back to what happened at work,and that day,he starts talking about every person he has ever known in his life that has passed.Then he starts obsessing about death,his own,and everyone he knows and cares about.Then it escalates to paranoia and he starts thinking everyone is after him,out to get him,repeatedly checks to make sure all doors are locked,looks out the windows all the time,thinks we are being followed when we go somewhere,etc.
It's so draining and I have to be very careful that I am not triggered by his actions,which happens sometimes.And when I am,then things can get pretty chaotic at home.He's supposed to be my rock,he's supposed to be the one I turn to when I need to feel safe,when I need to be comforted,but now I feel like I have to be the rock.
I don't like this at all,so here I am,back again,looking for help and support with this.
But I am back because my husband was diagnosed earlier this year.And tbh,it is very draining.It was,and is,hard enough taking care of myself and managing my own PTSD,now I feel like I am pulling double duty or something.
I was diagnosed due to childhood abuse and he was diagnosed due to a death at his workplace,so it is very different than mine.When he is triggered,not only does it take him back to what happened at work,and that day,he starts talking about every person he has ever known in his life that has passed.Then he starts obsessing about death,his own,and everyone he knows and cares about.Then it escalates to paranoia and he starts thinking everyone is after him,out to get him,repeatedly checks to make sure all doors are locked,looks out the windows all the time,thinks we are being followed when we go somewhere,etc.
It's so draining and I have to be very careful that I am not triggered by his actions,which happens sometimes.And when I am,then things can get pretty chaotic at home.He's supposed to be my rock,he's supposed to be the one I turn to when I need to feel safe,when I need to be comforted,but now I feel like I have to be the rock.
I don't like this at all,so here I am,back again,looking for help and support with this.
