I am crawling out of my skin with hypervigilance!

[ms spock]

It is hard, but I did a bit better than I have before!

 

[ms spock]

It is being a challenging day, but I am doing okay.

If I could come out of this it could change my life!

 

[ms spock]

Okay if I can come out of this...

 

[Sweetleaf]

Okay if I can come out of this...

Yes you can! I am coming out of my anxiety and hypervigilance, slowly. Today I have had many hard moments.

Some stuff fell, in the other room. It sounded like a bunch of stuff falling, and it instantly threw me into high alert. I got up, I grabbed a big kitchen knife, and I went into that room and checked the whole room out really slowly and afraid, and saw that it was just a pile of books and folders of papers that fell over in the closet, which is exactly what it sounded like, and what the logical part of my brain was saying to me, but the danger-alert part of me was just too strong to not do that. I feel really embarrassed about it, I'm glad nobody was home.

But, we can come out of these things, and feel the relief of not feeling them, or feeling them less. :) and I hope everything goes well for you.

 

[ms spock]

If I could just shift out of the hypervigilance, I could be grounded and present in this now.

 

[ms spock]

I am really struggling with hypervigilance. If I can step out of this it would be such a change.

I really want to do this! I want to settle down. I want to be grounded and in myself.

 

[EveHarrington]

Do you think the med withdrawals are making the hyper vigilance worse?

 

[ms spock]

I don't think the medication withdrawal is making it worse. I think I am noticing that I am in hypervigilance more now that I am in medication withdrawals, if that makes any sense.

 

[ms spock]

So this is a big challenge. I went walking for an hour this morning, in order to settle my nervous system down.

 

[ms spock]

One way that the hypervigilance manisfests is through the maladaptive daydreaming. The maladaptive daydreaming is a way to try and manage the fear of the future. I have to stop the obsessive thinking, my psychiatrist said to challenge it continuously.

 

[ms spock]

The other thing is diet. My diet is improving but getting off the sugar is really important for me. I have improved a lot, but there is room for improvement.

 

[ms spock]

This is so hard, as I have so much stuff gonig on getting in the way of actually getting on top of this.