I Am Hurting Today!

[iwanttoLIVE]

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Hi,
I am 39, married, have 2 boys, work part-time, and try to have more good days than bad. Today is a bad day. I am feeling very alone and disconnected.........the thing is, my brain says "don't be stupid, you have someone you can talk to but just don't do it". When I get this way its very hard to reach out because I don't know what to say or how to express myself. I wish I could scream or cry but just don't have the energy to pull it out. This must sound crazy :crazy:
I called in sick to work today and dont know what else to say so I am going to try to catch a nap and check back later. Thanks for reading

 

[TLight]

So sorry you are feeling distressed today. It seems to me it is a natural human motivation to want to isolate when we are feeling 'out of sorts'.

I guess when I'm like this....I go for a walk. Perhaps interact a bit with a grocery clerk, etc. But I too don't call a friend and talk. Really, I don't feel like talking. Truth is, I'm miserable and don't want to share that with anyone.

I think forcing ourselves to interact on days like this might be a bit too much pressure....but if we are feeling suicidal, well, that's a different story. Call your therapist.

But other than that, I think some days we just have to 'get through' somehow. Count on the fact that better days will come. Just bare it for awhile, feelings do change with time.

I notice you are female. Perhaps this is hormonal too?

I know it's tough.....but just try to get a bit of perspective and be gentle with yourself.

 

[ISupportHer]

I'm glad you are here!

I would not say you sound crazy. You are feeling alone and disconnected but yet you are trying to connect here. That is good and that is a start!

Welcome,
ISH

 

[wattle]

Hello and welcome to the forum, some days can be very difficult, look after yourself and when your feeling up to it have a read through some of the information on the forum.There is a lot of very helpful info here and also a lot of very helpful understanding forum members.:Hug_emoticon:

 

[This Ends Now]

Its not crazy at all to want to isolate somewhat during times of depression. I just read today that it could be a survival technique from prehistoric times. When we have experienced a loss (or in our case re-experienced a trauma) our whole body slows down. We become tired and depressed during our most vulnerable times to avoid danger. That's just one theory though.

Please remember you are not alone. We are here for you when you are ready to talk.

Also please try to remember that the bad days do not last forever. Like all other things sorrow will rise, level off, fall, and eventually vanish. What you are feeling right now is very real but it is temporary.

::hugs::

Liz H.

 

[suzie q]

I hear what you are saying about not knowing how to express yourself when your so overwhelmed with feelings. You do sound like you have a lot on your plate, and sometimes the routine can drive you crazy. I think it's great you called in sick to spend some down time. That doesn't make you crazy in my book, it sounds like you are trying to take care of you!! That's what we have to do from time to time. Hang in there and welcome to the forum :thumbs-up