Relationship I Can't

[Yunie]

I keep trying to understand why he cut me from his life so easily. He used to be so sweet, I almost couldn't handle it, but when I mentioned those times, he acted like I was crazy and making them up in my head. When I asked him, towards the end, if he loved me and he would point out how annoying I was. On bad days he would punish me by refusing to tell me that he loved me. When we used to hang out he would say how cool it was that we liked the same movies and video games. When I let him live with me, because his parents kicked him out, he said that he refused to play two player games and he didn't really like any of. My movies because the movies he liked he bought. He used to tell me how he liked to hold me, but when I would recreate the moment he said he didn't like to be touched. I am very low maintenance. I love my alone time and my video game time, but he started treating me like an obsessed person. He said he didn't feel like he should be obliged to do anything and wouldn't take me to my uncle's funeral. He used to text me grossly romantic stuff every day, and when I bring it up he says that people believe what they want to believe...is it even worth it? He was my knight in shining armor after my ex abandoned me, but this hurts worse than it did. And he still acts mad at me for no reason I know...

 

[Peach]

He used to be so sweet, I almost couldn't handle it, but when I mentioned those times, he acted like I was crazy and making them up in my head.

Yep, I've had that conversation. "I don't know how you keep reading too much into our conversations." Absolutely bizarre and frustrating and a real mind-fook. I listed off all the things he said and done to make me think he loved me and now I'm terrified to see him in person again (we're long distance) in case I find him making an effort to not make those romantic gestures. I would be devastated.

Sorry you're going through that.

 

[Yunie]

Yep, I've had that conversation. "I don't know how you keep reading too much into our conversations." Abso...

While I like it when people understand my circumstances, I wouldn't wish this pain and uncertainty on my worst enemy. We both probably know we are better off without the pain, we fell in love for a reason...love isn't always logical. I wish I knew what to in both our circumstances.

 

[Peach]

The uncertainty definitely sucks. I've wondered what the hell I'm doing and if I can hang in there, so far it's still a resounding yes - he is worth it. But good heavens it is difficult at times.

I was watching a Youtube video last night and a guy said you know you're in love when your partner gives you the highest of highs and lowest of lows. I'm there...never been this happy before and never had a month long period where I would burst into wracking sobs without warning. Love is a real mother! LOL!

If you find the answers, let me know. :)

 

[Yunie]

The uncertainty definitely sucks. I've wondered what the hell I'm doing and if I can hang in there, so far...

That is the perfect quote, for this situation! I want to hug him and kick him at the same time! No idea if I'll get the chance again, since he's on his isolation kick from me at the moment. We both just have to take it one day at a time!

 

[Peach]

Here's to wringing their necks followed up with a big kiss and a bear hug! Cheers! *cling*

I hope he chills out soon and things get back on the right path for you.