BlueWeepingRose
Confident
I feel like I am already dead, I know this sounds dramatic but it's how I feel. I'm always in pain, crying, feeling alone, having panic attacks, and looking over my shoulder. No longer feel safe and don't know who to trust anymore. I keep blaming myself for being raped and feeling stupid for going back to my ex-boyfriend. The man I loved and thought the world about, how stupid I was that I couldn't see he was abusive. I was blinded by it, by everything. Everyone doesn't talk much to me anymore, I feel so alone and I hate the way I feel. Nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I wish I could smile more, but it's not possible. Know all of this may be too much for some to read but I can't keep this inside of me anymore, it's wearing me down, I feel so tired....