I Feel It Coming Again

[Forgetful]

That deep dark hole where I've spent most of my life!

After a couple of months feeling, dare I say, happy! Its coming back. Those few months I was active around the house, spent time outside every day, was ok taking short trips into town with someone.

Now - personal hygiene, what's that? Prefer to be by myself, dishes and housekeeping - don't care.

I realized it was back this morning when I should have been working on getting ready for my yard sale and I said f**k it, tomorrow!

I prefer the busy, happy person I was.

BTW I'm being screened for Bi Polar.
Yippee another diagnosis to my list.

 

[ladee]

PTSD is the gift that keeps on giving... damn it !! You cherish the good time you had, it will come again... this part will not last forever... it won't last as long.... the fact this 'monster we live with' comes in cycles.... you learn to live with that too...you learn it is only temporary... and you push thru what you can, and be good to yourself no matter what... We belong to a club we never wanted to join. I understand and do the same thing myself... I hate PTSD with a passion... and all the pain it brings us... but it also brings us some amazing people who understand and won't let us make this journey alone... I'm sorry you are where you are... but you are not alone... gentle hugs if you accept.