Panda Bear
Platinum Member
Significant parts of my life have changed over the years since starting therapy. I used to be one way in a lot of areas and now I'm not so much.
Friends used to be non-existent, my family ruled my world and my mom was still causing havoc in my life. I was terrified of people, could fly off the handle at any moment. Couldn't live in the present, fear and worry ruled my life. Chorionic pain, anxiety my depression, sleeplessness. It goes on and on...
Anyways, do you ever feel like you've changed so much that it scares you? I actually recognize myself in the mirror, and even look at myself. I buy clothes, dress nice when I can, make friends, conversations and even go places at times. There seems to be more good than bad, my bumps are smaller and easier tolerated.
I guess what I'm getting at, is that is this living life? Like how other people live...love...and cope? Because every so often it scares me and I wonder if it's me or someone else? Or I maybe I'm f*cking this change thing up? I don't even look the same!
It's like my past is fading and my present and future are becoming what they should have been all along. It's like I'm becoming whole, one person. Not 100 different prices, all scattered across my world and non of them working together.
Friends used to be non-existent, my family ruled my world and my mom was still causing havoc in my life. I was terrified of people, could fly off the handle at any moment. Couldn't live in the present, fear and worry ruled my life. Chorionic pain, anxiety my depression, sleeplessness. It goes on and on...
Anyways, do you ever feel like you've changed so much that it scares you? I actually recognize myself in the mirror, and even look at myself. I buy clothes, dress nice when I can, make friends, conversations and even go places at times. There seems to be more good than bad, my bumps are smaller and easier tolerated.
I guess what I'm getting at, is that is this living life? Like how other people live...love...and cope? Because every so often it scares me and I wonder if it's me or someone else? Or I maybe I'm f*cking this change thing up? I don't even look the same!
It's like my past is fading and my present and future are becoming what they should have been all along. It's like I'm becoming whole, one person. Not 100 different prices, all scattered across my world and non of them working together.
