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I was being tortured, and they labeled me bipolar when I had a psychosis due to it. It was psychological torture by a large group of people, and it took over 20 years to correct the diagnosis. Basically I had to get on an antidepressant that would cause mania in bipolar if used alone to prove I wasn't and I had to fight a psychiatrist for it. But I've been on similar ones that do the same thing, and no mania, so f*ck way they call it.
If you look around the boards you'll find some of us who have been in psych wards that were closed, or in my case taken over by the state for abuses. I've had a shrink after 7 years start telling me I needed to get face work done and was to low to find a boyfriend because I was on disability. And used as a Ginny Pig for drugs for others. However, I kept looking, and found this Psychiatrist, and he didn't want to give me an antidepressant, but did when I said I would stop going to him if he didnt. I find a new therapist who is helping.
If you don't deal with your traumas they will deal with you. Your not alone. I've isolated, and lost it before. I was pushed into a psychosis to "teach me a lesson." It's not uncommon. I don't remember all of it, and this past year has to remember the first one. The bits as pieces may never comeback, and if they do its because it needs to be remembered.
Your not alone, and your safe here. Therapy helps, and thank God for coffee shops as I people watch to help my isolation. If you get a good one you may meet more people like you than you thought possible.
It's scary, but worth it to seek help. Life happens and more trauma may occur as part of a normal life. Trauma builds up, and changes the brain.
It's going to be ok. After my psychosis, breakdown, or whatever you want to label it i had so much shame and fear. It's scary to get pushed over the edge. You have my support, and if you need to chat email me on this site. The conversation thing, and I'll be more then happy to give youngsters support. Don't worry spit a label at this point. Just keep getting better. Your my alone.
If you look around the boards you'll find some of us who have been in psych wards that were closed, or in my case taken over by the state for abuses. I've had a shrink after 7 years start telling me I needed to get face work done and was to low to find a boyfriend because I was on disability. And used as a Ginny Pig for drugs for others. However, I kept looking, and found this Psychiatrist, and he didn't want to give me an antidepressant, but did when I said I would stop going to him if he didnt. I find a new therapist who is helping.
If you don't deal with your traumas they will deal with you. Your not alone. I've isolated, and lost it before. I was pushed into a psychosis to "teach me a lesson." It's not uncommon. I don't remember all of it, and this past year has to remember the first one. The bits as pieces may never comeback, and if they do its because it needs to be remembered.
Your not alone, and your safe here. Therapy helps, and thank God for coffee shops as I people watch to help my isolation. If you get a good one you may meet more people like you than you thought possible.
It's scary, but worth it to seek help. Life happens and more trauma may occur as part of a normal life. Trauma builds up, and changes the brain.
It's going to be ok. After my psychosis, breakdown, or whatever you want to label it i had so much shame and fear. It's scary to get pushed over the edge. You have my support, and if you need to chat email me on this site. The conversation thing, and I'll be more then happy to give youngsters support. Don't worry spit a label at this point. Just keep getting better. Your my alone.
