I Hate The Effects Of Ptsd

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[reddevil1111]

Welcome.
i worked at home for over two years. it helped to destroy my marriage. I withdrew into one room of the home and refused to come out but for the most important things. The wife fed into it and helped me get further into my shell. Be careful, to much being alone can be dangerous as well. you need to be in touch with others to stay grounded.
i used to play with my meds as I didn't like taking a bunch of pills. I am down to one medication and I am manageable. Maybe you could talk to the doctor and find out what drug is causing the weight gain and take some of the more important drugs that could have a big impact on you. Medication is a crutch. It helps you out of tough times if you take it. its not the miracle cure some expect it to be. Talking to a therapist helps just as much as medication can imo.
Learning the better ways to cope and figuring out triggers (whatever sets you off) figuring that out can be such a huge weight lifted from your shoulders. i don't know where your at with coping but the truth is we are all only one bad day from the bottom.
i am glad you found the site. Its filled with good genuine helpful people who all suffer like you do. Sometimes its the hardest thing for me. To remember that everyone else in here suffers like I do. I get so used to fighting the battles alone.

 

[Lee C]

Weight gain with meds can be counteracted with extra PT. I do 4 hrs a day and it does me no harm, I think !

 

[Jimmy1]

Yup, I am there at the bottom. The only reason I stopped the meds is because I am still in the military and don't want to get kicked out over weight gain. When I wrote my original message, I was feeling down and it made me feel better. Yes, the meds were doing there job. I am more aggressive, suicidal, and angry. I will see how it goes off the meds. If I hit the ultimate rock bottom, then I will start taking them again. I am on like 12 pills per day. Holy crap that is a lot of pills to take. So yes, I suffer from extreme PTSD, but I can still function at my job, because of being able to work at home, just sometimes it is hard to deal with life and yes, the thought of calling it quits always crosses my mind. I then look at my family and know that is not the answer. So I keep taking everything day by day.

LS, medication is a double edged sword. On one part it helps us calm the mind so we can work on our issues and also keeps us in a placid enough state to function with our family and within the community. On the other side it can have other effects like weight gain, insomnia, excessive sweating, etc, etc. We need to weigh up the good with the bad and as you have said, you don't want to be found out and kicked out. Don't you think them kicking you out medically would be a good thing in the long run?? I had to weigh up fighting a medical discharge so I could complete another year for a bigger retirement pension. The medical pension in the end far outweighed that.

It's your choice in the end and we are here for you.

Jimmy

 

[Anglesachse]

Welcome to the fold

 

[Terrier]

LS - I hope you are finding your way. 2 years ago I was at rock bottom, the docs had me on so many meds I couldn't count them all. There are meds that counteract the weight gain so ask your docs about it. It was my experience that they experimented with me to see which meds helped. Today I am off all meds and feeling better about life. I retired from the military and moved to a smaller town with less triggers. Also, the comment about PT, it really helps. I ride my bike several days a week for miles. It can be hard to regain your passion for things, so I started new passions instead. Good luck to you, we are all here with you.