I Have Been In Rage Mode

[Lady of Longbourn]

I need to stop now as each time I post something I get a warning. I just signed notice and it appears it is for grammar. I never know specifically what I have done as it is corrected when notified.

Everyone had to agree to it, even the mods. It was just a general reminder of the forum rules.

[DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/double-opt-in-rules.31618/[/DLMURL]

Keeping post. I think you are doing great and help lots of people with good advice. :)

 

[winterose]

Winterose, I am sorry I am just seeing this thread now.

Don't worry. I got kind of selfish in a couple posts and realize now others are going through just as much or more stuff then I am. Sorry about that. I do appreciate you coming and sharing though. When you do get the time to respond, you have good insights Venusian. I've learned from you too.

Which is easier said than done and just writing this post out has helped me figure that out.

That's why I posted. Felt maybe others might be there too. It was my battle cry/ grief scream. :) Like a howling wolf look for others who can howl along too.

I am sorry for unloading and hope it was not inappropriate for the topic. I know that for myself, when I read others that allow escalation of bad behaviors due to empathy, guilt, wanting to help, etc, I see how they deserve to be treated right.

I am glad you felt safe enough to share! I love it when others post under my stuff and share their own stuff too. It helps dialogue. It helps me to learn. I wasn't able to respond as much as I wanted with some personal stuff going on here. What I wanted to say, I might be angry but I never take it out on another person. I been the kind to hold it in if I can't find something nice to say. I am sorry you went through all that with your family.

As far as grammar, I look at it now as it being a helping tool. Helping me to communicate better so I am not misunderstood, and the ability to keep improving myself now. Only time it hits harder is if my own self esteem is sucking at the moment, then I wait until I get my positivity back. So please, don't stop sharing because of that.

I am really happy some of my posts opened people up and helped them to talk. It helps me not feel so alone in this for one. For two, it helps me grow hearing all of your stories. Thank you so much for that.

 

[mamachick]

Thanks Ayesha and winterrose-I know about the grammar rules and also think it is good. I have difficulty reading stuff too. I just meant that when I get tired or in a hurry I am sure that is when I make more mistakes. Once its corrected, I don't know what I did. I may be unintentionally repeating the same errors.

winterrose-this has been a very good topic, has made me think so much. I really appreciate it.

 

[anni]

Oh, my Brat, wait until your fingers don't work ( don't mean this, it's 'for example.. :) ) on top of dyslexia kicking in on random morning, it's like God telling you to stop worrying so much. The forum folks know perfectly well who is commiting genuine mayhem and who is just flaking out as regards to spelling and grammer. I had to sign that also, we all did, the difference being that 3 years ago I would have been convinced it was sent just to me that morning for doing something 'bad'.

I'd also like to say that whatever anyone posts here is just plain old NOT, not, not self, self-absorbed, or selfish. It's awfully helpful to get this stuff out of your head and out in black and white, it just is. You also can't kind of 'compare' traumas, reading here what other members have gone through and thinking well, mine doesn't seem to terrible when she/he has gone through all THAT. Maybe I'm just whiney. NO. You know it's safe here, from both trolls and ninnies who have read blurbs on PTSD and decided to would be a good thing to give themselves because their cat ran away. PTSD is PTSD, your pain is valid and your words count so please do unload. It's just healthy and good for all of us.

It's not as if we're all sitting around sipping tea with the Queen, you clear your throat and say ' Y'know...' :D

 

[mamachick]

Oh Anni, do you mean there was a a list of rules sent to each person that they had to read and agree to the other day?

From time to time, I get some warning about grammar, but never know what I did. The other day I got the list of rules to agree to and thought I was being warned that I would be banned the next time. My head is in a swirl half the time I think.

 

[WillyKat]

I think maybe we all got that.

 

[mamachick]

I just thought I committed a more serious grammar error than before and this must be my last warning. Admittedly, I took a new job and have had so much reading that I'm in a bit over my head with commitments.

 

[safenow]

We all got it, brat. Nothing to worry about. It was basically just a reminder for us all.

I love this thread. When I was younger, I belonged to a couple of groups involved in protecting children and abuse victims. I have gone to the Capital and spoken before Congress to get my points across. I'm pleased to say that laws have changed because so many of us have spoken up. I am still involved with Child Watch, and work on the league to help in child abduction cases. I am not rich, but I still find ways to contribute of my time or funds to help in the causes I believe in.

Now there are child protection laws and mental health patients have rights. Stalking laws are in effect. Spousal rape is now against the law in most states of the US. Was it worth it? You bet it was. If I was physically able, I'd still be out there. Now, I write to my congress people when I see an injustice. It's about all I can do. But at least I can do that.

I know it's true, the only time evil wins, is when good people do nothing.

 

[winterose]

Now, I write to my congress people when I see an injustice. It's about all I can do. But at least I can do that.

That is a lot safenow. Politicians want votes. When the public does take time to write a letter, especially these days, it goes a long way. I like how Vachss states it. Each punch in the wall get's the wall to crack, eventually that wall WILL crumble. When one person get's tired, another steps up to keep punching.

 

[mamachick]

safenow-that is a great accomplishment. I use to speak out locally and work directly with victims, but after the assault by the cop, I have barely been able to speak to anyone in person, no public speaking, and not about the abuse. It is going to trial it looks like so I guess I will finally get my day in court.

I live in US, but where I live, cops can come into your own home after you have been assaulted and tell you to do something (nothing lawful-it could be to give them a blow job), if you refuse, they will arrest you for "obstruction" and hurt you. Needless to say, I have been very injured. I wish law changed in West Virginia, but we are just Buckwild. Worst place in world to live.

 

[winterose]

Still the same but not so intense. I'm keeping busy with workouts and helping bro get the loans done. Also got a ton of clutter thrown out. Geez, it amazes me how much stuff I gone through in my room already. I think my stuff is procreating like rabbits.:cautious::confused: I do not remember having this much in my room.

 

[safenow]

Worst place in world to live.

I have a friend who lives in such a place. It breaks my heart they treat you like that. I wish there was something I could do to help change these things.

I am really glad you are going to have your day in court. I hope it helps in many levels.