Ahhhh, City, you are so very cool. Thank you so much for your encouragement. The past two days have been - well different. A friend and I went back to my son's house two days ago to 'pack up'. OMG my mental state was just screwed. On the way back to my friend's house I remember something. My anxiety was over the top. I have been running that way for quite some time - since I have been switching back and forth between houses. I saw that because the day prior I 'took a break' and booted around, just being me. Anyways, I have some clonazepam and ativan and thought, hmmm, wonder if that would help. I have taken 1 mg each day the past two days and I am noticing a huge change in my energy levels and my overall mental state.
I don't generally like taking my meds buy I think I might try this for a bit to see what difference it makes to what looks to be anxiety issues right now.