I am just so stressed today...well I have been for a while My emotions are so overwhelming. I am shaking and crying.
It just seems more overwhelming today. Where do I begin? I am supposed to see my sons this weekend, but I am never sure if my ex will bring them. I shake until I see them. My sons are 14. My ex who used to worship me is so mean now. WE have been divorced 5 years and he has gotten meaner by the year. I don't think either of us wanted the divorce. There were other people pulling us apart. My mother always told me he never loved me but I knew different. Things were fine until I started having surgery after surgery. 24 in 4 years some related to 3 car accidents that weren't my fault. I recovered from most of the surgeries at my mom's. Not a good idea. It was the worst place to put me. I felt like I was being used as the rope in a tug of war. When they fought or angry with each other I was the one who had to deal with it. I never really wanted the divorce and I don't think he did either. We both had people trying to rip us apart. Our 2 grown daughters hardly speak to me. I just found out via FaceBook our second daughter is pregnant and no she isn't married.
Next week is our wedding anniversary and it just rips me apart. I want my life back!!!!
It just seems more overwhelming today. Where do I begin? I am supposed to see my sons this weekend, but I am never sure if my ex will bring them. I shake until I see them. My sons are 14. My ex who used to worship me is so mean now. WE have been divorced 5 years and he has gotten meaner by the year. I don't think either of us wanted the divorce. There were other people pulling us apart. My mother always told me he never loved me but I knew different. Things were fine until I started having surgery after surgery. 24 in 4 years some related to 3 car accidents that weren't my fault. I recovered from most of the surgeries at my mom's. Not a good idea. It was the worst place to put me. I felt like I was being used as the rope in a tug of war. When they fought or angry with each other I was the one who had to deal with it. I never really wanted the divorce and I don't think he did either. We both had people trying to rip us apart. Our 2 grown daughters hardly speak to me. I just found out via FaceBook our second daughter is pregnant and no she isn't married.
Next week is our wedding anniversary and it just rips me apart. I want my life back!!!!
