I Let Go.

[thomas.robinson.54966]

This hurts. I am sorry.

 

[FishNH]

Hey brother, dont let go, pm ya

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

She wants nothing to do with me I have ruined it all. I can't force her to love me

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

I even came out with what caused it. In another thread. She still follows this site and my threads

 

[Chin Strapped]

For all the pain you feel now and the hopelessness, things can and will get better.

Get a new routine, stick to it; wait for time to pass, feel better. Love comes again, whether that's new or old. No one is going to look at you whilst you're on the floor.

You are a warrior and that can apply to all aspects of current life; talk to yourself and remind ya brain you can be a badass when needed.

Don't beat yourself up for being human too much, mistakes are what we do mate.

This diary for her on here is not good for your healing. You need your own space.

My thoughts only, chin up Thomas.

Dan

 

[FishNH]

Thomas, one foot in front of the other brother and keep on trudging forward.

-Dave

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Dan and Dave thank you. I don't care if she reads. Its just part of her personality.

 

[dutchiedelta]

Thomas, your life may never depend on another person.
You apparently love the lady and feel horrible for what happened.
At the end of the day you have to learn to live with yourself.
Focussing on her and your relationship with her might mean you are skipping steps for yourself.

We all have to sort ourselves out before we can be anything to someone.
I'm not saying 100% sunshine and rainbows but having a bit of a grip on what it means to have PTSD.

Only then can we expect another person to have a clue of what goes on when we tell them.
Would it work for you to look at yourself first with your therapist now?

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Yes it will

 

[anthony]

Sorry to hear mate. Relationship breakdowns are part of life, unfortunately... and whilst they do hurt, you will recover, you will grow and you will get on with life. Our present tense can often cloud our ability to see our own future... don't give up, fight through it, deal with the pain and see what comes your way in the future.

I have been there, I have done it, plural, and I do understand the pain of this due to PTSD and military aspects.

 

[FishNH]

Just remember. The good Lord wouldn't give us anything we cant handle. Im dealing with my PTSD and working through this shit then my wife wants a divorce. Burning the candle at both ends, but you keep your eye on whats more important to you. Family/friends, religion, etc. Go out and reconnect with friends. Thats what I do when I go hone on the weekend to take my.mind off shit. Aint going to be easy brother, just keep your eye on the prize. Pm me if ya need anything bud

-Dave

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Thanks all. I am just afraid I will spend he rest of my life thinking of how I drove away the love of my life.