I Need A Cliff

[Panda Bear]

You're right @The Albatross

I learned today that it's grief working its way through my brain. I've struggled with extreme amounts of sadness these past few weeks and it seems that I'm learning to understand what grief is.

I don't need to be afraid of it, I am indeed safe. It's alright for me to feel this way and when it cope and work through it, things will be okay.

My T really is a great man...

 

[Tinyflame]

@Panda Bear I am glad & relieved for you. :hug:

I learned today that it's grief working its way through my brain.

^ Do you think this could take a very long time?

 

[Panda Bear]

Indeed. I think it will take some time. But honesty, the longer I refuse to feel and process the sadness, the longer I'll spend dealing with grief

In the end, it's up to me how long this takes.

 

[Nevermore]

wow, I so relate Panda Bear. It took me a long time to understand what you just said - but I'm not sure if that whole process can be hurried anyway. even the "Denial" stage! Be very kind to yourself....

 

[Tinyflame]

That's what I meant too. Not avoidance, but how long does feeling that take @Panda Bear ?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Just thinking on this. I managed to get through a suicidal day by spending the whole day sharpening a knife... I mean, I self harmed a lot, but I didn't kill myself. Having stuff to occupy you and give you time can quite help.

I'm glad you have a good T, and yea, sadness is tough, and shitty to deal with for a while. I wish I had more experience and knew how to help, but awfully I cannot even help myself.

 

[Tinyflame]

((((((((((( @Saelben ))))))))))))).

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Junebug
Thank you.
I've had a really long day today, working sort of gets my thoughts off of the emotions, though

 

[Panda Bear]

@Junebug, I don't really have an answer to that question. I guess we keep working till we can see the other side.

What I can tell you, is that it's possible to get through it. I'm very certain of this.

Hang tight Junebug, you can do it too!

 

[Nevermore]

I am very certain of this too - certain also that it leads to greater freedom and peace than stuffing everything down does. It takes courage and resilience but I think you've got both of those! And anyway j think you develop both those qualities by doing this.

 

[Tinyflame]

:hug: 's & TY to @Panda Bear , @Saelben , @jojo88 .