I Need Some Opinions Please - My Sons MySpace Profile

[Jet]

I don't think that the english language has words to express what it felt like when I saw his words on the screen. In any language what so ever.

At the same time I am feeling rather wrecked at the moment. I have no idea why it did not occur to me that this would trigger me really bad. I guess all I saw was my son. I have told my story so many times...it was like it wasn't even mine anymore (just a story...like something on Lifetime). But talking to Jonathan makes it real.

 

[Grama-Herc]

Jet

I am so happy for you that words cannot express the depth. I do have to admit a bit of jealously though. Wish I could hear from my kid. But this is not about me. Congrats-----what you did took a lot of guts, so allow yourself a small break down. Go, have your LITTLE break and then relish in the joy You do deserve it HERC

 

[9Lives]

hello

wow, I followed your story & it touched my heart. I wish you & your son the best of luck in mending your relationship. I'm glad you put it on the line & reached out to him & I'm so happy he responded! Take care & good luck for the future...

 

[Jet]

thank you so much for all of the support. I am so excited...I feel so blessed. I thought that I had lost him forever...that maybe I would never have the chance to know him again.

Herc, I completely understand the jealousy thing. For years I have found it difficult to look at other people's families and not feel a bit of that. And I still do...I have 3 little girls out there who I can't contact for at least another 5years. It hurts to be seperated from your babies - whether they are 7 or 37.
Really, you make me feel doubly blessed - how easy it would have been for him to turn me down.

You know, I believe that people are sent to us for a reason (call it God, the Universe, fate...whatever you choose). And that is sort of how I feel about Jon. I have been looking for him and his dad for a while now (my best friend and I even did a couple of paid searches) and little turned up.

But about a month or so ago I was feeling depressed (lost 2 jobs and had 2 kids B-day's). I was talking to a neighbor and I asked what I was doing it all for.... why did I continue the fight, why did I get up and deal with the world everyday. I mean there were things in life that I enjoy and I could see having a happy life but I couldn't see it meaning much. I had this huge hole inside that just wouldn't heal. Now I have my answer.

 

[Jet]

We have messaged back and forth a few times now. He also sent me pictures. My beautiful, beautiful boy...

Has told me a bit about his life...his music and his girlfriend. I am still amazed that this 18 year old boy has such a wonderful heart.

 

[batgirl]

Well I'm late coming into this thread but I am really happy for you Jet. That's such great news that he is open to communicating with you, it must make you feel so good.

 

[Jet]

Thanx. I am completely over the moon. I still sort of feel like I am in a state of shock. But it is getting better. I just can't quite believe that after all these years it is really him I am talking to.

 

[Deleted member 93]

It is all wonderful. You are doing great and I am so happy he is being receptive.