I Need This To Stop

[sun seeker]

I am in worse shape than ever in my life. I don't see anything that can help me. I've found the basis of all my trauma, all this pain, and everything else seems like it was a warm-up for this big one. I don't think anyone can help me out of this one. I am in an impossible amount of pain, there is no one here to help me and I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried medication. I've tried hurting myself - sorry, but I'm desperate and sometimes it helps temporarily. Can't get to the E.R. I need something here, with what I have access to, to get me through this. Anyone?

 

[digger]

I am in worse shape than ever in my life

Can't get to the E.R.

I know this probably won't be what you want to hear @sunseeker, but if you are in a worse place than you have been previously when you have needed to go to the hospital, then I think finding a way to get to the hospital needs to be your priority. Even if it's only for some temporary respite so that you can gather a bit of strength again and give you some safety from yourself.

 

[sun seeker]

I truly can't get to the E.R. It's not a matter of preference, it's a physical impossibility. I need something I can do at home now.

 

[sun seeker]

I'm trying to see if I can get a prescription without going to the E.R... but it will be many hours before even that is a possibility, if it is.

 

[sun seeker]

I might get a few more hours of sleep with the last round of meds I took. I'm going to try that.

 

[ladee]

You can't call an ambulance or the police to get you to the ER?
You need a serious break.
Prayers you find help soon

 

[sun seeker]

I can't. Hard for me here to go into why, but I really can't.

Yes, I do.

Thank you.

 

[sun seeker]

Damn - medication is not making me sleep. It's not enough that this trauma has to plague me during the day, it won't even let me take a break from it at night.

I thought I was ready to face this one. I was wrong.

 

[ladee]

Do you need to talk ..
Just get the noise out of your head?

 

[Friday]

So there have been some cases where someone is suing the ambulance company ...or the only hospital for hundreds of miles... And needs to get to the hospital. Neither of which is willing to take them, because of the lawsuit. Which I only know about because our hospital was required to airlift them (being a Level 1 Regional Trauma Center, responsible for 5 states).

So I would really question whether "can't" is factual (might be, I'm not saying it isn't, I can think of roughly half a dozen extremely unlikely scenarios) -or- part of the symptom set of you being in the worst place you've ever been.

 

[Friday]

That said... Times I'm not willing to go to the hospital?

- Really loud music. So loud I can feel it in my bones. If my heart rate is sky high, I start out at that tempo & then slowly back it down, genre by genre, until I'm at a more normal 50-120bpm.

- Basics. Food. Sleep. Movement. Tasks to complete. Distraction.

- Distraction : Books, movies, conversations, other people's problems, writing, drawing.

- Exercise.

 

[sun seeker]

So I would really question whether "can't" is factual

It really is. Three people have asked me that now and I've said the same.

What I really need is sleep. That's what gives me time off from what's going on in my mind.

But, yeah... I'll try music while I'm waiting for sleep.

Anyone have any problems I can solve for them?