I Realize That I

[Tanishq]

I realize that I need to stop beating up myself. :shifty:

 

[Tanishq]

@Let It Be That is very rough to go through. Sending you a hug. One family member in the least should let you know since you were her daughter. :hug:

 

[Tanishq]

@Anrish Cool news to know you might be in love. Best wishes to you. I am happy for you. :)

 

[ms spock]

I realise that I have lots of rumination. That rumination is trying to stop me from dissociating, spacing out, not feeling real and not feeling the world is real.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize that I equate not worrying to (myself) being in denial.

I realize I can't even imagine (any) future (whether it be minutes, days, months or years) as being anything but bad & terrifyingly horrific. I suspect because it has been (has occurred), I expect it to 'jump out at me' at any time. I realize I have no understanding at all of how others are able to not think of or 'feel' about the future that way.

 

[Tanishq]

@Junebug to be honest with you, I also can't look/imagine future. In a way, it's best for us since we are trying to focus on now/present moment. :)

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Junebug :hug::whistling::whistling: songs of comfort :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Tanishq , @Recovery4Me . :hug: :inlove: :hug:

I realize that, maybe defying ptsd requires a giant leap of faith: to believe when we "shouldn't" , hope when we can't, trust (others too) when it's difficult or frightening or seems such a risk, be peacefully optimistic about our abilities to manage the future, or be hopeful that the future can be even joyful & peaceful & safe- that we can be so in the present too.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that this year might become better than the last one. ...I have a person who loves me and who is willing to move in the same house with me.

I realize that I don't want to wake up alone anymore.

I realize that my family will help me when I will move from my current flat.

And I realize that my sister and her boyfriend are absolutely cute. (I went to their place yesterday and we really had a lot of fun.:) )

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize long term severe pain (physical) really makes SI more likely. :(

I realize a lot I can't remember when the SI was the worst, (but then again I'm still here); I found a paper from before Christmas 2009 where I had written down for help someone's words that I heard, it said, "Just you wait. Where there is life there is hope. Trust & hope. Life is sacred. Have faith, hope, but especially trust." :notworthy: :wideeyed:

Hugs for all. :hug:

 

[MissKB]

I realize that I will be on medicine and going to therapy for the rest of my life. How depressing.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@MissKB I an sorry that you are depressed.:inpain: But with all respect, I would love to have an ongoing therapist.They are soooo expensive,;) but can be actually helpful at times.
:hug:'s if you accept.