I Realize That I

[ms spock]

I realise that having improved immensely means feeling feelings - and I am not a fan! But it is great to be feeling all the feelings because once I learn to do that my life will really improve! I am not the same person I was a month ago. I am growing that much!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I am going to call the adult night school to try to take a computer class and improve my skills so it will help me in looking for a job. I have to do this while I am job hunting.

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize my son is going to have his own work values. He's planning on quitting his job because he says he doesn't like it. I'm not happy with it but it is his life.

 

[ms spock]

I realise that I can heal and manage my PTSD symptoms!

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize my son may always have a vision of his mother as a bad mother. There is nothing I can do about that. I try to be a good mother and I get it back in my face. I can't win. Very disheartening.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realized that I have to always hang onto the good and the positives to make it through all day. I also realized that the cognitive distortion really is going to be a new discipline for me from now on. At least I am beginning to learn more about me in a way that promotes growth.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I learned so much about myself today. Where I am now and where I need to go. I have so much to learn on recovery process and I realized I have such a long way to go yet.

It is time to learn how to live a decent life in the real world and deal always in reality and stick to the facts.

 

[ms spock]

I realize my son may always have a vision of his mother as a bad mother.

Part of the development stages of emerging adults is to fight with and separate from their parents. Whilst the content might feel personal - he is also learning who he is and what his values are - You have a good relationship with your immediate family @Britt.f7 and I have seen how much you have grown and changed and how hard you worked to get there. Your son has seen this too - but he is asserting his identity - that is not about you being good/bad it is about him growing up.

I have so much to learn on recovery process and I realized I have such a long way to go yet.

Me too @gizmo!

 

[Ellabella44]

I realize that I have to slow down and take what comes when it comes. Have done too much lately with wanting to sprint ahead to being "normal". Healing is a process, not a race.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

After yesterdays meltdown, I realized that I have so many new things to learn about me. I think that the cognitive distortions have begun the process for me and I am learning that I have such a long way to go.

This is about retraining my thinking and developing better coping skills and learning all I can about myself now.

A lot of new things surfaced yesterday and I felt as though I had stepped back a giant step. I am so eager to learn new coping skills etc. I realize that I have such a long way to go.

I have gotten complacent and that is not good. I took so many things for granted and felt as though I was ok.

I am so grateful for this new reality wake up call.

 

[Britt.f7]

@Ms Spock Thanks for the insight. Sometimes it is so difficult to see what is really going on when you are in the depths of it. Your words have given me stuff to think about. Trying not to take it personally. He is going through a rough place in his life and his mom is the closest person he can lash out at. I must remember that. Thank you for your encouraging words.

 

[ms spock]

He is also literally wiring his brain and developing some independence - he should get consequences for his behaviours - and he needs them to become the man he will become! It is not okay what he is doing!

But it is not about you - they grow up, they have to practice setting boundaries and working it out for themselves. So it is not personal - mental health issue or no mental health issue - he is going to have a go at you during this part of his process. So in that sense it is not personal.

Emerging adulthood is something that I am reading about at the moment @Britt.f7. And we all need a friend to point out things and bring our attention to certain things. I am most grateful for people on this forum pointing things out to me.

My best Britt.f7.