I Remember. .......... Very Angry

[invisible survivor]

I just left my therapists and it was an awfully session. I remembered part of the sexual abuse that took place when I was nine. And now I am very angry and I am having trouble staying in the here and now. It took awhile for my therapsit to let me leave because I was dissociating so badly. I am the most angry that I have ever been. I am angry at everyone. I am angry because I can't say that it might not have happened anymore.

 

[spero]

Sometimes I think anger can be useful. As long as you don't harm yourself or someone else. I do not like to feel anger. Maybe the anger can be used in a good way for you though. Maybe it will be something that will keep you looking forward and keep you fighting. You have a right to be angry about what happened.

 

[kers]

Anger is a reaction to being threatened. We get angry when we need to be protected. It is very good that you feel angry right now, even though it feels overwhelming. Have you discussed with your therapist some safe ways to dissipate some of the anger? I paint, write (angrily) in a journal, and do physical exercise. These things help me contain the feelings until I can deal with them with my therapist.