I think i lost my last reason to live

[Ewozo]

I feel kind of embarrassed and ashamed about this, but it was something I hung on to as if my life depended on it.. or...

Than you Igeve- 'I believe in God and I believe that God has a purpose for your life. God can and will fill your life with a greater purpose if you want Him to. God loves you.'

to add onto this my best friend and soul mate took his life 18 days ago... and he was a happy guy .. he never complained, or did anything out of the ordinary... My heart was broken... So my letter to you today, is when you feel so low, just pray to God .. he is there always even if you dont see him .... I hope you are okey !???. please try and also get rest.. it helps the soul to slow down and rethink. Take care and God bless

 

[geuibva]

Than you Igeve- 'I believe in God and I believe that God has a purpose for your life. God can and will fill your life wi...

Thank you for the suggestion. I appreciate it, but I'm sorry to say that I am no religious. It did and does not help me so far. I think due to my upbringing, my abusive parents being religious themselves, they drilled it in and caused me to have a very negative perspective and opinion on Christianity(or Catholicism.. sorry I am not aware of the differences.) for most of my young life. I no longer do, but I still do not lean toward ay religion or beliefs that are shared by a mass majority.

 

[geuibva]

I found that being on some of the medications they gave me made me a zombie, so I refused all except Zoloft. I felt like...

It did come back eventually, slowly, but surely. I am looking forward to having new dogs to work with as well as continuing the training of the ones I have now.

I spoke with my friend again and she's heavily trying to help me find a new therapist telling me she's a bad therapist for ignoring my suicidal tendencies and she's not writing an email for me to send to my therapist demanding for a letter. I want to be more gentle about it, but my friend says I am too gentle and shy or uncomfortable to be upfront with her, which is true.

I don't know what to do. I'm trying to wait with the therapist until I get medication at least, but I'm really worried I'm going to lose my mind.

 

[Popo]

You may be too shy or uncomfortable, but it is YOUR therapy, not your friend's. Talk to your therapist as best you can, and maybe think about going inpatient if things get really bad. The bond between you and your therapist is important, and shouldn't include others. How are you going to learn to set boundaries if you let her set them for you? She is not responsible for your mental health, and unless she is a therapist herself, does not know enough to help you.