I Think I'm Not Quite There.

[SharkyorBones]

Hey

I'm not sure how to explain this but i think ive been in a dissociative episode for a while now. Im not sure. But i feel numb. Physically. My heart is there i can feel it and its aching a little but i dunno. I just feel like my head is in a cloud. This hasnt happened since i was twelve and i dont understand. Maybe it has happened i just cant remember. I feel weird and no i havent used any substances or anything. I dont take meds. I dont understand this really does any of this make sense to anyone?

 

[Lolly]

My little sister who I look after has Dissociative Identity Disorder, and she has told me a few times that after an episode she feels like her head is the clouds. You may be partially dissociating, still able to function normally but you're not quite "all there", if you get what I mean? I normally ask my sister what she has done all day, and if she can't remember it all it normally means she's dissociated through the day :)

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I have felt "not there" before. Usually it happens after I've had some kind of trauma flashback or with I don't want to face the reality of something. I am not really another part, but I am not really myself either. I think the longest that has lasted was a couple of hours though.

 

[Nighthawk]

I don't know when I have been an a dissociative episode for a long time its like once I come back I wonder where I have been. I seem to function on a different level. Just an alternative realty for me. All real just not me.

 

[SharkyorBones]

I guess at this point I need to ground myself. Just dont know how to right now

 

[Lolly]

I guess at this point I need to ground myself. Just dont know how to right now

What my little sister does to ground herself is: have hot drinks, very sour sweets, ice on her, talk about things she has done during the day and where she lives etc, doing exercise (this works the best. She goes on an exercise bike). Those are just some of the things she does to ground herself, if you need ideas :)

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Yes, that sounds similar to a bad dissociative episode for me. I have only had three in my life, all after being badly triggered. I hope you have been able to come out of it by now. Sometimes mine can last days. The last one I had was in May and lasted a day. When I get into such a state, there isn't much I can do to ground myself. Its like my mind is in uber protective state and won't release itself because its not safe. Of course, last time I was an idiot and did a few dumb things like drive, so don't do anything like that! Fortunately after a day I was feeling grounded again. If you can't fully ground, then at least try to keep yourself safe!

 

[SharkyorBones]

Thanks for everyone's replies. Im not quite in the clear yet. Dunno what to do with myself tbh I feel like crying is that a good thing? I just want to escape but I cant Im trapped here and its not good.