I Want To Commit Suicide Cause Im Afraid Of Slow And Painful Death.

[Ourashes]

Jesus, last few weeks I've been thinking about suicide because of I'm afraid that I'll die in a slow and painful death .. soon.

I dont want to die, I just don't want slow and painful death. Dont know what to do to make these thoughts away. And because I'm thinking about death all the time, I cant concentrate to other stuff at all.

I'm just sitting at home all day and doing nothing..

 

[The Albatross]

We can't know how or when we will die. I think that if an obsessive compulsion is preventing you from living your life today. You would be best served to deal with it in therapy. Rationally, how and when we die is outside the normal scope of our control. Suicide not withstanding.

Most often with me, I have to look under the hood at the purpose served by the obsessive or compulsive thinking and ruminating. It can be a form of avoidance or procrastination for me when I'm uncomfortable with other situations or life issues.

I hope this helps you.

 

[Britt.f7]

Unfortunately, we can't be in control of everything. I believe Albatross has made some excellent points to look at.

Now, not meaning to be dark but dark none the less, there is no guaranty that any suicidal attempt will not be slow and painful. There are plenty of people that thought they had a fool proof method that didn't turn out the way they thought. We don't always have control. Not even of our last wishes. We can hope for it, but it is not a guaranty. By the way, this is meant to deter you not encourage you.

Please reach out for help if these thoughts become overwhelming. It may mean calling emergency services. You deserve to live.