I Was Happy For A While, But I've Regressed And I Have No Comforts Up Here

[Weremonks]

So, I kind of go on here infrequently being enrolled in university full time and what not, but I've been feeling kind of low lately and just kind of need a pick me. The problem is that I don't have any friends up here with whom I feel comfortable talking to about my problems. I feel like they won't understand and will laugh at me. Worse, I have a girlfriend, but she is part of he reason I've been feeling low lately. I haven't had the best luck with girls and I've grown weary of becoming attached to them. Anyways, with my birthday being last week, she decided to buy me a present without telling me, even though we've only been dating about two months. I'm not really used to people getting me stuff, so it kind of worries me that she actually got me something. Between that, midterms, and social isolation for the past three weeks or so, it's just kind of piled up emotionally for me. I miss my best friend, who's back in my hometown, and I miss my dogs although they are dead. Just, really don't know what to do, I'm kind of in the phase where I go through the day to hold up appearances, but I don't see a point to it anymore. I'm not changing anything anyway, right? Nobody really talks to me, and I don't feel important to anyone.

 

[Little Flower]

Take heart. Ur in a safe place here

 

[Laurie McLaughlin]

Hi weremonks -

I noticed in my life that negative things used to feel so real - but then someone challenged me to find the real inherent existence in the things were causing my sadness -

Is there inherent existence in the things that are making you sad? Or is it something we are choosing to give power to that in reality does not hold that power?

And also for me when I was lonely, I realized that I already had a best friend - myself, but I did not know myself well enough to really understand that

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon

Namaste - Laurie