Assault I was stabbed in my calf, very deep, lost a pro football career, 7 years later I’m almost unable to walk or feel my foot..

[aimfor101]

I was nearly stabbed to death when I was 16 I remember it happening… I had thoughts of my first love flashing through my head whilst I was limping for my life on a dark cold day in school uniform.

Today I was left with no support, no council no team nothing, they offered me 1k criminal compensation, told me I’m good to go as if my leg would be great after they just stitch it up never told me I’ll be how I am now bed bound feeling like the nerves and veins under and through my feet are blowing up or malfunctioning, it almost feels like I may be amputated one day you know!
Funny how life works..

I really don’t know what to do I’m just scared for my life and logically any leg injury and a stab like this there’s not much help … I just need support too get through this and
Hopefully some day walk and be pain free

It’s just horrible my whole sports career ruined and even social life that I probably don’t even recognise…

I just don’t know I would pick this experience in life, It doesn’t make sense

 

[In the weeds]

I'm sorry that happened to you, but welcome here. I'm sure you'll find a lot of support.

 

[PamelaS]

I was nearly stabbed to death when I was 16 I remember it happening… I had thoughts of my first love flashing through my head whilst I was limping for my life on a dark cold day in school uniform.

Today I was left with no support, no council no team nothing, they offered me 1k criminal compensation, told me I’m good to go as if my leg would be great after they just stitch it up never told me I’ll be how I am now bed bound feeling like the nerves and veins under and through my feet are blowing up or malfunctioning, it almost feels like I may be amputated one day you know!
Funny how life works..

I really don’t know what to do I’m just scared for my life and logically any leg injury and a stab like this there’s not much help … I just need support too get through this and
Hopefully some day walk and be pain free

It’s just horrible my whole sports career ruined and even social life that I probably don’t even recognise…

I just don’t know I would pick this experience in life, It doesn’t make sense

I’m sorry this happened to you. You are among fellow sufferers here. We are all here to listen, support and encourage one another as we walk through the life that we never would have chosen. We understand and we are all here for one another. Wishing you well on your healing journey. One step at a time.

 

[arfie]

hello aimfor. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. empathy on the dilemmas attached to traumatic injustices. in my own case, i'm not sure which is worse, the emotional or the physical repercussions. both have inspired me to every emotion from rage to grief.

I just don’t know I would pick this experience in life, It doesn’t make sense

pick this experience in life? ? ? i shudder to think what kind of person would CHOOSE this experience. i certainly wouldn't, but here i am, learning how to make the best of a bad situation. the physical repercussions haven't lightened up during my 71 years, but i'm happy to report that the emotional baggage has lightened enough to make the physical end easier to manage.

dunno if any of that is appropriate to your case, or not. just sharing personal experience in hopes of welcoming you aboard.

 

[aimfor101]

I’m sorry this happened to you. You are among fellow sufferers here. We are all here to listen, support and encourage one another as we walk through the life that we never would have chosen. We understand and we are all here for one another. Wishing you well on your healing journey. One step at a time.

Am I going to be amputated is my main concern, I don’t feel any circulation today really going through that side of foot and starts to feel numb at my heel and chat gpt said something like worse case for these things is amputation … I can’t believe the news

I need to see a doctor immediately but I’m so lost

 

[aimfor101]

hello aimfor. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. empathy on the dilemmas attached to traumatic injustices. in my own case, i'm not sure which is worse, the emotional or the physical repercussions. both have inspired me to every emotion from rage to grief.

pick this experience in life? ? ? i shudder to think what kind of person would CHOOSE this experience. i certainly wouldn't, but here i am, learning how to make the best of a bad situation. the physical repercussions haven't lightened up during my 71 years, but i'm happy to report that the emotional baggage has lightened enough to make the physical end easier to manage.

dunno if any of that is appropriate to your case, or not. just sharing personal experience in hopes of welcoming you aboard.

Oh wow I’m grateful, yeah I’m more than willing to know more about your situation

I feel like I may be amputated sooner than 2026 .. at only 22 years old.. thinking I had a bright future ahead of me and a family to build.
Seems destiny or fate had something else in plan really.. seriously need it checked it

 

[Midnightmoon]

Welcome

I'm sorry for your horrific experience.

Have you had any rehab/ physio/ OT assessments and plans done? I don't know where you are in the world but in the UK these services would all be able to support you gaining back some confidence and mobility with the body you've got to work with now.

I lost the ability to walk numerous years ago now due to a medical accident in my 20s, so I'm a full time wheelie. With it I lost the job I loved, my ability to have children, my home as I could no longer afford the rent with not working. The loss of identity attached to an able body is a long long grief process and I'm so sorry you are in this boat too. Have you managed to link in with anyone else with similar disability to you? (the way you write I don't know if CRPS is relevant, but if so their UK charity have support attached including funded therapy) One of my disabilities is rare genetic, but the charity attached to it really really helped me in those early days of feeling like I was the only one going through it, and their volunteers knew 100% more than the drs did on living life day to day! Social media has alot of bad press but for stuff like this is can be the little link of hope to the outside world.

Tools help. They help massively even if it's a bit of a challenge to get your head round at first. First time I sat in a wheelchair I cried. I hated the thing, hated what it represented, hated that my body failed me to that extent. Slowly, I learnt to tolerate that it's a tool that means I can learn to live my life again.

Your update sounds like such a pressing issue though, being medically stable is goal one, once you've got a body that is safe, then you can work around anything and everything else.

 

[arfie]

at only 22 years old.. thinking I had a bright future ahead of me and a family to build.

i often think losing a good thing looks harder than being born into the hopeless cesspool of despair of the kiddie whorehouses. mine was rough, but i was richer for most of what i lost. i can't even imagine losing the promise of a bright future.

 

[aimfor101]

Welcome

I'm sorry for your horrific experience.

Have you had any rehab/ physio/ OT assessments and plans done? I don't know where you are in the world but in the UK these services would all be able to support you gaining back some confidence and mobility with the body you've got to work with now.

I lost the ability to walk numerous years ago now due to a medical accident in my 20s, so I'm a full time wheelie. With it I lost the job I loved, my ability to have children, my home as I could no longer afford the rent with not working. The loss of identity attached to an able body is a long long grief process and I'm so sorry you are in this boat too. Have you managed to link in with anyone else with similar disability to you? (the way you write I don't know if CRPS is relevant, but if so their UK charity have support attached including funded therapy) One of my disabilities is rare genetic, but the charity attached to it really really helped me in those early days of feeling like I was the only one going through it, and their volunteers knew 100% more than the drs did on living life day to day! Social media has alot of bad press but for stuff like this is can be the little link of hope to the outside world.

Tools help. They help massively even if it's a bit of a challenge to get your head round at first. First time I sat in a wheelchair I cried. I hated the thing, hated what it represented, hated that my body failed me to that extent. Slowly, I learnt to tolerate that it's a tool that means I can learn to live my life again.

Your update sounds like such a pressing issue though, being medically stable is goal one, once you've got a body that is safe, then you can work around anything and everything else.

Hi there, I’m so grateful to hear your story and hope everything is much better with you, I trust you will still hit of bigger goals than you could of imagined and wake up with people around you that love you regardless, we must try make a difference, it’s easy to say this all, but with god … this is one thing I’m trying to come closer with too .. I believe miracles can happen in our lives..

Like now as I write this, my leg healed drastically don’t feel the constant stabbing, but man! Is it so weak… I can hold around the ankle and feel like it pulsating where as my other foot it’s fine and firm, does feel like a big disability I mean after all I potentially have not even potentially at this point but may have lost the only thing that kept me going in this life, it was what gave me identity as well and that was football, it’s just such a shame.
It’s getting better and when I save up some money I will take more physio I will have to be on top of my GP and all appointments although I live with family sometimes my family wouldn’t even take me to the hospital when I had a bad leg so I had to go myself, so right now I’m just working hard to stay strong. I know how it feels, many times my leg has broken down and I can’t walk and I’m like no way! Is this the end of my legs and me basically? I definetly know how it feels and it’s not nice.. I just hope medicine finds a way to repair this or there’s a natural healing way.

Do you care to explain more on the medical issue ??

 

[aimfor101]

i often think losing a good thing looks harder than being born into the hopeless cesspool of despair of the kiddie whorehouses. mine was rough, but i was richer for most of what i lost. i can't even imagine losing the promise of a bright future.

Aw grateful, yeah it hurts I suck it up and sometimes I’ll probably cry over it if it gets that deep, was literally my burning passion, a fire in me… something I love so much and hold dearly, but everyday that’s went past since, just doesn’t feel like it will get better..

But I do look at the potential positivies this may have caused…