I can understand that, and I'm not saying don't do it. If you feel that this drug may be the answer or at least offer something that can help you, then by all means, do what you feel is right for you. I'm just saying, do your best to find someone reputable, who knows about the drug and can be a safe guide to help you through it.
Even finding a therapist who practises using pure MDMA as a conduit to unlocking repressed stuff might be something worth considering? Just make sure you have someone there to hold the space for you. Doing it on your own might not be a very good idea is what I'm basically saying. But doing it with someone who doesn't know anything about how to be a guide or hold safe space for you, might be even worse than doing it alone, if you see what I'm saying.
I guess keeping it in perspective is a good thing as well. I mean, I'm not from canada, but they seem to have it a lot better there than in the States, when it comes to health care.