If I Could Change One Aspect Of My Ptsd.... What Would It Be?

[Grace11]

I'd combine Nicolette's response with Jadebear's because I would like to regain the ability to communicate my feelings better before I get to the point that I am going to burst with irritation and rage. I tend to be so hyper-paranoid about my own feelings, knowing I am sensitive so trying to hold back my thoughts, that I fail to verbalize any of it until it's "too late" and I've already blown up about something seemingly minor. I have named more than one thing, but reading back what I wrote, I can encapsulate it by stating: I would trust myself again.

 

[LeoTheLion]

I would like my Fears to disappear!

 

[Gcat]

I think if self-confidence remains intact, the other symptoms would go away or not appear in the first place: the depression, the hopelessness, suicidal ideation, numbing, hypervigilance, emotional dysregulation, hysteria, lack of trust, triggering, etc. - which leads to the question, "how is self-confidence built?" and: In the classic example of the kids trapped in a cave, how is it that one boy stays calm and focused and works his way out of the cave, while the other kids get overwhelmed and develop PTSD?

 

[Grace11]

Gcat, that is an interesting question and I don't want to derail the thread, but would like to point out that it is not that simple. When I am in extreme crisis mode - a real crisis - I am typically clear headed and do what is necessary - survival instincts? PTSD is what screws up my every day mundane life.

 

[Heather]

I would change the fact that I can't get organized! It is so frustrating. I get overwhelmed so very easily. Just trying to clean the kitchen sends me into a panic. I hate ptsd.

 

[anni]

The migraines. Yes, I understand it's not under some diagnostic list but trying to get my head to properly behave in an orderly fashion when things are overwhelming generally has this result. I can deal with everything but the dam migraines.

 

[Tinyflame]

I think I'd take the pain away, and all that goes with it.

 

[freakofnurture]

I'd get rid of my current inability to work on my stories. Writing would keep my head occupied, I wouldn't feel so terribly lazy, my confidence would be better off and it would make me happy.

 

[jewel]

If I could change another thing, it would be the bouts of hopelessness.....

I'm right there with you! Sometimes it seems like the anguish, the pain and the loneliness is never-ending. Since we have one another, we know we have a great support to help that hopelessness end. Since most of us suffer from sleeplessness, if the hopelessness happens and you, any of you need a friend, look for me. I am online a lot and i am here for all of you always!

 

[track108]

I would change the fact i cant feel love, i want to love again like i used to, and rage i dont like rage though the rage has had some funny things come from it, its mostly embarassing

 

[goingonhope]

All poisoning, toxic substance, negativity or other such impressionable negative influences to my mind, body and soul would be lifted up and right out of me, (along with, any and all, consequences from these) and instantaneously evaporate, ...Or, if not evaporate, blast back from whence it came.

Does that make sense? I don't know; It's awfully hard to tell at this hour.

 

[Innordinate]

I want to change how its already affected my family, friends, wife, kids, step mother, half sisters/brother. How it's still affecting them and how it will continue to.
I think of everything I hate that the most. I hate that I even entered their lives or that they know me.
I wish I had of been smart enough younger to tell them that and strong enough years ago to stay away from everyone.