Id start playing music again. I lost my confidence after being abused and humiliated. I used to play drums and I can play stuff on guitar and a bit of piano. I was pretty good at it and it made me feel free.
I started reading this and realized it was from 2013 lol. I would do things without needing approval, instead of having to put myself in situations where I can count on getting it, if or not I deserve it.