General I'm Broken Completely And Need Me Help

[Friday]

As a sufferer, can you tell me what your reaction would be?

For Isolating

I've mostly dated combat vets with the same sorts of loose screws I have... So that's happened. A lot. Meaning I can tell you what my reaction has been:

Most of the time? No worries. I totally get it. Especially when I know them well. We have out patterns down fairly secure / will touch base fairly regularly. No stress. They take care of what they need to sort out & I go about my life.
Sometimes? Untold relief. I need a break as bad as they do, they just got there first.
Sometimes? Guilt & anxiety.
Sometimes? Fatalism. Well, that's it. Probably never going to see them, again.
Sometimes? Stubbornness. Nope. Not happening. Get your ass over here.
Sometimes? I don't even notice. I am neck deep in my own business.
Sometimes? Grief / sadness / loneliness.
Sometimes? I'm pissed as hell.
Sometimes? I'm excited. I don't need a break, but oh yeah! Got one! Time to seriously go have some fun.
Sometimes? Confusion. Wait. Is this isolating or breaking up? Did we talk about this? Shit. Wait. What's going on here?

Point being, from experience, the blokes I'm dating? Aren't responsible for my emotional reaction... Even if they could predict it. Most of the time it's fairly safe I'll be completely fine with it. Other times, it comes at a good/bad moment. Regardless, it's on me. They don't control my emotions.

Which is also part of why there's no way I could tell you what my reaction would be, much less what anyone else's reaction would be.

For Breaking Up

No real pattern here. Depends on the person & the reason. Breaking up is hard. Even when it's exactly the right thing to do, and even when it feels good, and even when we remain friends... It's still hard. When it's a f*cked up breakup, (being lied to, strung along, cheated on, etc.) it's even harder.

 

[Becksknox]

@FridayJones Thamk you. I'll use this again and again for reference.
So it's ok, because this is for me and how he deals, is on him? He wanted this so all I'm doing is giving him what he asked for, space? And I need not worry about him, I need to take care of me.

And can you explain the Stubborness you described? And what exactly it means? Sorry to sound stupid.