Okay so me and this guy had been following each other on social media for years now, we would flirt here and there, we even went to the same elementary school. We started talking at the end of April, early May...he was a cool dude, told me he's been having his eye on me blah blah blah...we we agreed to start dating. He was still in New York at the time, he was getting released a week after we started talking.
Everything was peaches and cream until one day I said something to him via text and he literally blew up on me. I asked a simple question about him get back with either of his baby mothers when he got back in town (he has two children). It was like I hit a nerve and he sent back to back messages going off, I really upset him (this was before I knew abt his disability). Same thing happened the following week, and again a couple days later. All the while, he is driving from New York to Arizona because he was released at this point. When he finally got back to Arizona I asked him when we were going to meet up because I was so anxious to see him and he got upset abt that as well so I kind of left it alone...a couple days later I received a text from him saying, "You've won! There's no need to do that she won't have a father anymore soon". I was very confused so I texted him back with question marks and he had told me he planned on killing himself.
Now this is already all over the place already and I'm sorry but so much has happened in the passed couple months, and I just want answers....from the beginning, he was very bad at texting, and I could tell he didn't like talking on the phone much, but we'd be having a conversation and he would just stop texting back and it would frustrate me and it got to the point where I told him I was done dealing with him because I want attention (selfish I know), he explained to me EVERY TIME that he has a lot on his plate right now.
So anyways, after he told me he was going to kill himself, I called him, he didn't answer, sent several text messages, and got no response, so I went to God, I prayed and left it in his hands. The next day, I was getting ready for church and I received a text message from him and he let me know he was doing okay and we had planned to hang out that day after I got out of church. So church was almost over, and we were texting and somehow ended up getting into an argument because he said he didn't have very much money to spare so he couldn't take me out & I told him, I wasn't expecting him to take me out to eat, I just wanted to be in his presence and he got pissed, went off....but he still came. When we got in the car, it was like nothing happened, he didn't address the arguments, or any of the arguments we've had in the past 2 weeks for that matter. He was so sweet!! We went to the park and just hung out, he expressed himself to me...he told me him and his partner were sitting in a tank (military grammar police don't come after me, i don't know the terms) and he said he was going to go out and check for a bomb, but his partner insisted on going to check, and when he did that, he got blown up. Thats when he told me he had combat PTSD and he that he didn't know how to deal with it. He had a rough childhood as well and I believe he had PTSD before, but the Army only made it worse. I could literally see and feel the pain in his face. I just wanted to hold him and let him know everything was going to be alright. I cared so much for him and that was our first time actually hanging out, but thats how i am as a person, I love and care ALOOOOOT. & It explained all the times he blew up on me.
So we said we would see each other the next day and he never said anything to me, and when I mentioned it to him he kind of blew it off....let me sum this up because I feel like I am taking forever with this. We continued to talk, I didn't see him for a while but we continued texting and talking, and there were times he's invited me over and vice versa, but our schedules just didn't match. So my 19th birthday was in June and we said we were going to hang out after my birthday dinner, and we got into it because I wanted to go out before I came to his house, and he then told me that would be the last time me and him spoke and he apologized for everything and said, "it'll happen tonight". He know how I am so I immediately said "what is going to happen tonight?" and he said nothing and told me to call him....long story short, I went over there and we slept together....everything was fine...well everything was how it has been, he was distance and his communicate sucked per usual.
4th of July weekend he told me he had been feeling really down and how he wanted to kill himself and I'm trying to talk him out of it but he's just being so negative, so at this point the only thing I can do is pray...I didn't hear from him but that Saturday, he posted something on Facebook and it was upsetting because I am concerned and care abt your well being and you can post bullshit on Facebook?! I ended up going of on him (I promise I'm almost done). Then I told him to...screw himself and that I was done...still got no reply. Sunday came, and I still haven't heard from him and I tried calling and texting and nothing. I had a terrible feeling so I called the police and long story short, he attempted suicide and ended up in a Psychiatric Hospital for 4 days. After he got out he was put of medicine and we spend almost an hour on the phone and he sounded so happy and just full of life, he told me he wants up to really focus on each other and talked up us moving in together. I went to spend the night with him the next day. He was wonderful, loving and I just know his heart is pure, I know it for a fact!!! So at this point we are sleeping with each other and we are only seeing one another...we said we were going to hang out the next day...next day rolls around and I don't hear from him, I called him...no response...texted...same thing so now I'm annoyed cuz this always happens. Finally he answer the phone and said, "I have my daughter, Im sorry, you know how I get with my phone, and I was asleep".
I feel like he always has an excuse for EVERYTHING, and I know I've said I was done with him a numerous amount of times but I truly feel like I love him and I want this to work so bad, and he says he does too but his actions are not telling me he does, when we are together everything is perfect but when we aren't, its like i don't even know who he is. Just last week he got into it with one of his baby mothers and went to jail for aggravated assault but charges were dropped. He doesn't really communicate with me so I'm left wondering most of the time. He won't talk to me sometimes but will like pictures on Facebook and Instagram & will even post statuses but won't say anything to me but he swears I am the only person he talks to and half of me wants to believe him, but the other half is saying he's full of shit. But lately I've been looking at "dating someone w;PTSD" forums and its seems like I'm not the only one going through this. I want us to work, and so does he (he says, and i don't think he would lie abt it) but we just don't communicate and idk what to do...im hopeful that things can work but I'm scared he will hurt me emotionally.
Thank you if you have read this far, pls give me some advice.
Everything was peaches and cream until one day I said something to him via text and he literally blew up on me. I asked a simple question about him get back with either of his baby mothers when he got back in town (he has two children). It was like I hit a nerve and he sent back to back messages going off, I really upset him (this was before I knew abt his disability). Same thing happened the following week, and again a couple days later. All the while, he is driving from New York to Arizona because he was released at this point. When he finally got back to Arizona I asked him when we were going to meet up because I was so anxious to see him and he got upset abt that as well so I kind of left it alone...a couple days later I received a text from him saying, "You've won! There's no need to do that she won't have a father anymore soon". I was very confused so I texted him back with question marks and he had told me he planned on killing himself.
Now this is already all over the place already and I'm sorry but so much has happened in the passed couple months, and I just want answers....from the beginning, he was very bad at texting, and I could tell he didn't like talking on the phone much, but we'd be having a conversation and he would just stop texting back and it would frustrate me and it got to the point where I told him I was done dealing with him because I want attention (selfish I know), he explained to me EVERY TIME that he has a lot on his plate right now.
So anyways, after he told me he was going to kill himself, I called him, he didn't answer, sent several text messages, and got no response, so I went to God, I prayed and left it in his hands. The next day, I was getting ready for church and I received a text message from him and he let me know he was doing okay and we had planned to hang out that day after I got out of church. So church was almost over, and we were texting and somehow ended up getting into an argument because he said he didn't have very much money to spare so he couldn't take me out & I told him, I wasn't expecting him to take me out to eat, I just wanted to be in his presence and he got pissed, went off....but he still came. When we got in the car, it was like nothing happened, he didn't address the arguments, or any of the arguments we've had in the past 2 weeks for that matter. He was so sweet!! We went to the park and just hung out, he expressed himself to me...he told me him and his partner were sitting in a tank (military grammar police don't come after me, i don't know the terms) and he said he was going to go out and check for a bomb, but his partner insisted on going to check, and when he did that, he got blown up. Thats when he told me he had combat PTSD and he that he didn't know how to deal with it. He had a rough childhood as well and I believe he had PTSD before, but the Army only made it worse. I could literally see and feel the pain in his face. I just wanted to hold him and let him know everything was going to be alright. I cared so much for him and that was our first time actually hanging out, but thats how i am as a person, I love and care ALOOOOOT. & It explained all the times he blew up on me.
So we said we would see each other the next day and he never said anything to me, and when I mentioned it to him he kind of blew it off....let me sum this up because I feel like I am taking forever with this. We continued to talk, I didn't see him for a while but we continued texting and talking, and there were times he's invited me over and vice versa, but our schedules just didn't match. So my 19th birthday was in June and we said we were going to hang out after my birthday dinner, and we got into it because I wanted to go out before I came to his house, and he then told me that would be the last time me and him spoke and he apologized for everything and said, "it'll happen tonight". He know how I am so I immediately said "what is going to happen tonight?" and he said nothing and told me to call him....long story short, I went over there and we slept together....everything was fine...well everything was how it has been, he was distance and his communicate sucked per usual.
4th of July weekend he told me he had been feeling really down and how he wanted to kill himself and I'm trying to talk him out of it but he's just being so negative, so at this point the only thing I can do is pray...I didn't hear from him but that Saturday, he posted something on Facebook and it was upsetting because I am concerned and care abt your well being and you can post bullshit on Facebook?! I ended up going of on him (I promise I'm almost done). Then I told him to...screw himself and that I was done...still got no reply. Sunday came, and I still haven't heard from him and I tried calling and texting and nothing. I had a terrible feeling so I called the police and long story short, he attempted suicide and ended up in a Psychiatric Hospital for 4 days. After he got out he was put of medicine and we spend almost an hour on the phone and he sounded so happy and just full of life, he told me he wants up to really focus on each other and talked up us moving in together. I went to spend the night with him the next day. He was wonderful, loving and I just know his heart is pure, I know it for a fact!!! So at this point we are sleeping with each other and we are only seeing one another...we said we were going to hang out the next day...next day rolls around and I don't hear from him, I called him...no response...texted...same thing so now I'm annoyed cuz this always happens. Finally he answer the phone and said, "I have my daughter, Im sorry, you know how I get with my phone, and I was asleep".
I feel like he always has an excuse for EVERYTHING, and I know I've said I was done with him a numerous amount of times but I truly feel like I love him and I want this to work so bad, and he says he does too but his actions are not telling me he does, when we are together everything is perfect but when we aren't, its like i don't even know who he is. Just last week he got into it with one of his baby mothers and went to jail for aggravated assault but charges were dropped. He doesn't really communicate with me so I'm left wondering most of the time. He won't talk to me sometimes but will like pictures on Facebook and Instagram & will even post statuses but won't say anything to me but he swears I am the only person he talks to and half of me wants to believe him, but the other half is saying he's full of shit. But lately I've been looking at "dating someone w;PTSD" forums and its seems like I'm not the only one going through this. I want us to work, and so does he (he says, and i don't think he would lie abt it) but we just don't communicate and idk what to do...im hopeful that things can work but I'm scared he will hurt me emotionally.
Thank you if you have read this far, pls give me some advice.
