I'm Frustrated

[driftaway]

I'm frustrated, and I'd like to vent. Someone from my Ts clinic called today but I can't get ahold of anyone who knows why. I'm assuming my appointment with T is cancelled because when I tried calling her, thw voicemail was set to the general clinic msg rather than her own. I have been counting the days to our next appointment. It's not like me to be so needy and attached but I haven't been doing well... daily flashbacks, daily dissociation, daily nightmares- also unlike me. Between the PTSD symptoms and relationship/work issues, I was looking forward to having her to talk to about all this and to offer suggestions about how I can help myself. This is compounded because in our last session, she told me (I asked) that she had diagnosed me with PTSD. Though I've been seeing her for 5 months, we've only just begun addressing trauma and doing the "work". I have a lot of questions for her and I just wish I knew what was going on.

I hear this inner-child screaming at me that theres no one to trust and that she's abandoned me. Worse, she's hurt or her husband or kids are hurt. All these feelings are overwhelming and I have this " knowledge " that I'm not going to last long... That soon enough, I'll be dissociating, far far away.

Thanks for letting me vent, hugs to all of you who want or need them.

 

[Jnean]

you explained things so well, I feel so similar, especially about dissociating, I am making another appointment to get in another time before my next session and I see my T once a week. I get upset too when my T has to reschedule because it feels so critical for me to make sure I go weekly. I will take the hugs and back atcha.

 

[joeylittle]

I'm assuming my appointment with T is cancelled because when I tried calling her, thw voicemail was set to the general clinic msg rather than her own.

Is it possible it was just a confirmation call, or a call about your insurance? Regardless - you can have them call you back first thing. I'm only suggesting that it could be things besides a cancellation and/or an injury or illness to herself or her family. Try not to go too far down that road.

Most places in the US will not leave a message unless you've expressly given them permission to do so. For mental health, the default setting is 'only talk to client, do not leave message with any content'. So, if you are OK with messages, you also might want to talk to the admin person about updating your paperwork.

 

[Brenton]

I'm frustrated, and I'd like to vent. Someone from my Ts clinic called today but I can't get ahold of any...

I feel you, I really get where you're at. My situation is one of deep transferance; I love her like a mother, and its hard to separate