I'm Going Back To College!!!

[Abstract]

Wow. That doesn't sound small at all Leah. That is wonderful and I know how important it is to you.

 

[Leah123]

1. I told my therapist the absolute worst thing about me. Hooray! LOL. I haven't exploded or been rejected or gone crazy.... yet, anyway.
2. I got an A in my most recent course, even when it meant having to do two big final projects to get it.
3. I got up my courage and am working on applying to a dream job. Won't get it, most likely, but glad I'm preparing to do that type of work!
4. I just celebrated my 15th wedding anniversary!!!
5. I've been angry, but I've been working hard on my temper, haven't had a bad outburst in a while. (Crosses fingers I will keep doing better.)

(And just because it's hard to only focus on the positives: my schedule is chaos incarnate: I need to focus on making it more regular. Maybe that can be an accomplishment for next month, lol.)

 

[DMerish]

Woo-hoo Leah! Congrats on checking all those items off!!! What great news to share - I love hearing this kind of stuff!

Okay, now before you go making any more goals . . . put your right hand on your left shoulder and your left hand on your right shoulder, rub your hands along your upper arms and give yourself a hug!!! :D

 

[Leah123]

This week, I changed the course of my family's destiny. Not all accomplishments feel good at the time, and this one is definitely stirring mixed emotions, but I've done well.

 

[Abstract]

Yay!!

 

[Leah123]

Well, October was a rough month, but I did just get word that I earned another A in by Bachelor's program, that makes 4 in a row.

 

[Abstract]

Wow Leah. Its extremely impressive. You are super human I reckon. Visits from mothers, processing trauma, marriage dramas, motherhood and then this...

 

[Leah123]

Abstract, I only just now saw your post and it cracked me up. Thanks so much. You are super yourself, I think, to always be so encouraging! It has been rough with my husband lately, very rough, but I have a couple successes to report.

1. He is now in therapy full time, once per week, and knows how serious this is, how our family dynamic must change. It is rocky right now, but he is doing what I asked, going to therapy and also career counseling and has virtually stopped drinking, which I did not ask for but I am so happy about it. (I am prepared for the worst though, but am hoping for the best.)

2. I just got a raise at work, and I think a promotion is coming this week. I wouldn't brag about that, except that I've been doing a lot of intense therapy, and I was deathly afraid to lose my job, because when I was dealing w/trauma as a teenager, it was too much and I dropped out of high school, so getting the raise is an affirmation that I can deal with emotional issues and still be successful in ways that matter to me, that I can still manage life.

I am just trying to remember and be glad that even though we may not feel well, we may be doing well, doing good work that will pay off.

 

[The Albatross]

I love what you just said, "trying to remember and be glad that even though we may not feel well, we may be doing well..." I will leave off of the "doing good work that will pay off" as that has not been my direct personal experience. I have some "not yets" that way. But one can always hope. You sound good Leah!!! :hug:

 

[Leah123]

Hooray! I got an A in my Art History class! I was really nervous about that one because I love art, but I am not knowledgable about it. I did well though and I learned a bunch. I'm keeping the textbook so I can learn more, and am going to try and take my daughter and hubby to our art museum this week. Here's to new experiences!!!

 

[DMerish]

Woo-hoo Leah! Great job, Leah! Woo-hoo! And getting out, taking in new impressions, so healing. I liked what The Albatross said, "even though we might not be feeling well, we may be doing well." You're proof of that!!! :tup:

 

[Leah123]

Hi all. I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed lately, trying to avoid being too upset by all the really tough things on this site, but I hope you're all doing well, have been trying to post a bit where I can.

I am glad to say that I just finished another course in my BA program, and though I was positive I wouldn't get an A, the professor surprised me by rating my final work very highly and I did it! I've finished six courses now, seems like a long way still to go, but.... I'm learning to take better care of myself I think and doing well in therapy, so... here's hoping I keep it up!

Now that I think of it, have a couple other accomplishments to report also.

I did earn the promotion at work, that was a relief. A little more money and job security, I seriously need it to keep up with the therapy bills, ha.

Also, I set a limit with my mother, a very scary one, cutting her annual weekly visit to a long weekend. I'm pleased with myself for that one... going to be easier now when she visits in the summer.

Also, I've been working on my parenting, have found a good approach that seems to be smoothing out some of our issues and my kiddo's been sleeping a bit better to boot, definitely a good thing.

Sometimes I feel like I'll never get to the balanced life I want, enough time for everything, and to feel comfortable, but... heck, can't say I'm not trying!

 

[Leah123]

I just received my grade for the course I completed March 1. I earned an A, it was a struggle, I had a near breakdown this month due to a barrage of stressors from which I'm still trying to recover.

Today I also received a surprise award at work.

I am sad to be feeling very reactive and drained lately, not up to my usual new standards for mothering or life really, but... I am doing alright, definitely better than before I started therapy, and just need to keep focusing on self-care to get back to 'normal.' Sigh. Here's to success.... progress, not perfection.