Sufferer I'm New Here

[horsepig]

I have been diagnosed with ptsd and looking to this forum for more support, as I do not have a lot of friends in the same boat as me persay.

I was abused by my mother from age ten to age fifteen when she died of cancer. I feel very out of it, as a now eighteen year old am typing this I don't feel like I am here and it is incredibly disturbing and it causes rather frequent panic attacks.

I also have incredibly vivid dreams and am afraid to go to sleep generally because of night terrors and a fear that I may lose my mind. I also recently had a pretty bad reaction to prozac recently that made me hallucinate and gave me an overwhelming fear that I was going to slip out of my mind/body. it's been about a month since I've been off of it and I'm still getting brain zaps and still feel more bizarre than usual.

 

[safenow]

HI horsepig. Sorry you have been struggling. Do you have a therapist you can talk to? I found I have to be very careful of what meds I take.

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. You will find lots of good information and people here. Everyone is very supportive. Feel free to ask question, and look around for answers. If you see a thread you'd like to contribute to, feel free to comment.

 

[horsepig]

I do, I see her once every two weeks which I don't think is enough but it's state care so it's what I have to work with at the moment. unfortunately I think my care might be terminated if I don't start on my latest prescription which is some SSNRI of some sort. I really do not feel comfortable with anti depressants after that last experience, I still feel especially wonky and f*cked up from it. I'm glad to hear, I need all the support and friends I can get.

 

[Finding Shawna]

Hi, I'm new also. There are so many wonderful people here who can relate to your situation. I joined only today and I am able to say things I can't seem to talk to my therapist about. It has been the POSITIVE highlight of my day. I wish you well.

 

[safenow]

I really do not feel comfortable with anti depressants

When they put me on those, I ended more depressed than I was to begin with. LOL. But then, I'm weird anyway.

 

[horsepig]

When they put me on those, I ended more depressed than I was to begin with. LOL. But then, I'm weird anyway.

yeah I was taking something when I was ten that I was told was an anti, made me feel completely numb, I'm not a huge fan of psychiatry these days, probably could have done without being prescribed amphetamines as a kid.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome. :)

 

[Toria]

Hello Horsepig (fab name!). The symptoms you describe after taking Prozac are well known in the medical profession. There is a book about it - I think it's called Prozac Dreams. If it's any help, I think it is the only one with that particular side effect and is also considered quite old in pharmaceutical terms. A lot of the newer tablets are much, much kinder to the taker.

Welcome to the Forum, and I hope that you can find help and support on here between your therapy sessions x

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

 

[horsepig]

The symptoms you describe after taking Prozac are well known in the medical profession. There is a book about it - I think it's called Prozac Dreams. If it's any help, I think it is the only one with that particular side effect and is also considered quite old in pharmaceutical terms. A lot of the newer tablets are much, much kinder to the taker.

It's left me with this weird antsy feeling and it makes me really anxious and sort of screws with my thought process as well, really bugs me it's been a month since I've been off it. I'm worried it's gonna leave me like this permanently or that I'm losing my mind

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.