In Therapy Again

[Nepheli]

I had been in therapy for over than 15 yrs and then i quit due to financial problems. In my country health insurances don't pay for mental therapies apart from meds. Lately my PTSD hit again and I thought of trying EMDR and brainspotting. My first appointment is scheduled for next week. In the meantime i have already freaked out. What if my emotional pain is unbearable? What if my body collapses? Such fear.. i only sleep for two or three hours and i weak up terrified that smb has broken into my house or that the walls of my house are made of glass and various abusers are standing still outside, looking at me and so on..
I suppose i m afraid i ll get badly retraumatised. Or am i exaggerating? I wish i knew.

 

[Hope69]

You can take your time with the therapy, from what I understand of brainspotting, they should start with something positive so you can return to a grounded place as often as you need. One step at a time. I wish you well!

 

[rosey]

Good luck @Nepheli I am starting emdr on monday and have the exact same thoughts. going to feel the fear and do it anyway!

 

[Nepheli]

Thanks hope and rosey.
I ve been in so many different kinds of therapies over the past 20 yrs that not only am i afraid of EMDR, that is a new technique for me but i also dont know whether i can trust this new therapist i ll have the session with, on monday. My G.P recomended her to me. EMDR is new, here in my country and i m old. Thus that's perhaps my last chance for some emotional relief.
Anyway, monday is aproaching.
Rosey, good luck with your sessions! I d loke to know hoe is it going.