Incredibly Low

[Kim]

You went out for a jog? That's awesome!! Give yourself a pat on the back for that one. You made a huge step in beating this. Keep up the good work.

I'm thinking of you.

 

[Sazza]

Yeah dragged my feet the whold way round managed 4 miles furthest I've done in while use be able to run alot further.the thing is I'm questioning myself now like I'm making it out to be worse than it is, I mean if can manage a jog surely I can't be that bad. I felt alive for short while but then all went downhill again. Desperately trying not to sink any further but the dark thoughts ate still there and I feel crippled by this darkness it would be so easy to give in but trying best not to let it grip me anymore than it has.

 

[KP the nut]

Yeah dragged my feet the whold way round managed 4 miles furthest I've done in while use be able to run alot further..

I'd settle for 400 yards :roflmao::sick::poop:

So fat and out of condition :cry:

 

[Sazza]

You are a lovely person though KP that much I can tell.

It's been a rough night back yo not sleeping again, will see how day pans out for now I have that uneasy worrying feeling I can handle that if can keep darkness at bay.

 

[Sazza]

Today I think I admit defeat and am going to bed for a while to hide, the darkness will still be there it won't solve anything but it's just how I feel don't have energy fight it today.

 

[The Albatross]

I give myself permission to do that on occasion... but do not give myself permission to stay there. Hope you get some rest and feel better soon Sazza.

 

[Sazza]

Thanks only went for couple hours up now but feeling dreadful I really am going to have to see about something to lift this before it gets worse, I know if sink much further functioning will be out the question. Think rather anxiety be through roof and not on Meds than feel this way.

 

[KP the nut]

Hang in there Sazza.

The rollercoaster will eventually turn upwards again. It is a struggle to get there and start climbing but you are not on your own.

((HUGS))

 

[Sazza]

Thanks Kp everyones support means alot, really struggling at the moment to keep my head above water so to speak. It's just so hard to keep fighting the battle seems never ending the tunnel just seems full of darkness. Sorry feel like a moaning bat going and an on and ariston.

Don't know if should go back doctors feel it to soon to go back paranoid spent so much time there lately don't want waste there time.

 

[KP the nut]

. It's just so hard to keep fighting the battle seems never ending the tunnel just seems full of darkness.

I made a previous post somewhere about not being able to see the tunnel let alone the end of it. A member replied that no-one had said it was a straight tunnel and the light was just around the next corner. I liked that.

 

[angel2write]

(sharing your pain tonight)

 

[Srain]

Sazza, yeah, I would call the dr. Med check.

Anytime you are in this spot don't hesitate to let them know you are not doing well, especially if the doc is going out of town for that length of time. Quick call, like ripping off a bandaide, doesn't mean you are not working at this hard enough, I promise you or haven't given it enough time. Feeling worse is NOT the goal.

Hugs,

peace,
Rain