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[Sazza]

Kp to true it's not straight many twists and turns. Sorry your suffering to angel. Thanks rain I will definitely be popping along to my Gp at some point this week going ring up later see what days she working so can try get in.

I just don't have the will to even move myself today, losing all sense of purpose and hope. Might try writing another letter for Gp as when go struggle say what need to.

Sazza

 

[Sazza]

Please excuse me while I moan again but this really is just living hell at the moment. I'm stuck I want to stop functioning no it requires too much effort, if wasn't for typing I wouldn't talk feel silenced under the crumbling pressure of this darkness that's crushing me.

 

[Sazza]

Things are getting worse dark thoughts are plaguing me it's going be end week aswell before can get doctors. Oh well i will shut up now.

 

[Kim]

I'm thinking of you Sazza. Wish there were something more I could do.

 

[KP the nut]

(((Sazza)))

Brain dead at the mo - EMDR T :cry:. Thinking of you.

Be kind to yourself

 

[Nighthawk]

Please don't chase yourself away from the support you might have hear. I wish there were words that could help you to lidt you out of that never ending hole.

Thinking of you
Please take care of yoursef

 

[Sazza]

Just to let you know I still about just not up to being around at moment, things are pretty bad and I am currently under the crisis team. I will catch up with you all when I start climbing out of this darkness.

 

[KP the nut]

Sazza, I admire your courage. It takes a lot of strength to admit you need professional help. I am proud of you, please be proud and kind to yourself.

Linking arms and sending strength

(((HUGS)))

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((Sazza))))))))))))))

Thinking about you,
Rain

 

[Lucycat]

I will catch up with you all when I start climbing out of this darkness.

Brilliant! You can see that this is temporary, and however hard it is you WILL start to climb out.
Look forward to seeing you in that brighter place.

 

[kimba]

Hope you are doing better. I'm thinking of you.

 

[Sazza]

Hi Just a quick update. I was only under the crisis team for about 5 days before being admitted to hospital where i spent 6 days. I was reluctant to go in but was told if i didn't i would be assessed and if deemed necessary sectioned. My first ever inpatient experience, i did from the onset try to get out though, in hindsight i know i wasn't well enough to be discharged but i blagged my way out.

My medication was increased to 30 citalopram whilst in there and i have to say the depression is just increasing, i keep being told to hang in there as could be effects on increased dose. I am however feeling like a zombie, i am in a constant daze like im in dissociation all the time people keep saying my eyes look funny im just not with it. Whilst in there the doctor said i have PTSD but its mild and could be alot worse if what im going through is mild i would not like to see severe. I was mess in hospital still am don't undestand them letting me out really. Also asked if i wanted a personality assessment, i didn't like the idea of this has disturbed me somewhat.

Anyway thought id just update you all, bit concerned now as likely be discharged from crisis next week and gotta wait for therapy, in mean time i feel lower and lower but don't want discuss things with crisis team incase hospitalised again.

Sazza